Am I just a convenient lay or could it be more?

We’ve known each other at least 17 years- his family lives down here so he’s here at least once a year. And we try to see each other- when we do we hook up.

but it feels different than it has when I’ve had other hook up- we’ll stay and talk for a while, he’ll put his arm around me. He’ll ask if I’m gonna text him more often and then gets mad if I don’t. He asked if I was going to ever be honest (I don't know where we stand so I don’t say a lot bc I’m scared) or if it will take another 15 years before I am.

he lives in another state, and I am more than willing to have an LDR. I just don’t know where we stand, am I just convenient or could it be more?

Am I just a convenient lay or could it be more?
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