Years ago, my brother told me I was autistic. I didn’t know what it meant, so I blew it off as another smart ass thing that he said to be crass. We don't have a good relationship, so I refuse to ask him about. Knowing him, he'd laugh it off as a joke, but my brother has a habit of masking truth as a joke.
I think the tell tell for me is my delay with social cues. When ruminating, I can identify social deficits from past situations and I believe I make slight improvements over time.
I've learned to enjoy solitude. Only... I do occasionally crave connections. It doesn’t hurt, at least not initially to see people in relationships or to see someone have a decent amount of friends and family. A few times a year, I acknowledge that it would be nice to have those bonds.
I'm guilty of pushing people away. I'm a highly sensitive person and my feelings are easily hurt. I feel like there's something about me that rubs people the wrong way.
Maybe I'm too sensitive, but I feel like people go out of their way to tell me I'm unattractive. I recall a former acquaintance said " If a guy saw you from the back, he'd be disappointed when you turned around." During the pandemic if I had to remove my mask, kids would say "You look different from what I expected." Or they would seem startled by my appearance. " A guy that kept asking me out told me I was a 5, and another guy I dated on and off, mentioned that he usually dates better looking women.
I tried online dating and guys always said my pictures looked better.
They would talk about my appearance, my weight, my lisp, and say rude things to me which turned made me into a hateful person.
I wonder if I could be autistic and maybe this is why I don't recognize I'm unattractive. Maybe the autism is limiting my able to comprehend why people don't don't like me or go out of there way to be rude.
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