Is it good idea to study abroad that sponsored by government?

I have mental problems like ADHD. I graduated, but currently don’t have job. In my field it’s hard to find job especially in my country. I don’t have friends and can’t improve my life without money. I can’t go to therapy to solve problems with communication and I can’t do any treatments to look better. I live with parents and they give me money only to food. I said to my mom that I want to go work abroad to earn my own money. If I don’t work with my diploma degree, it’s really hard to find job in my country that pay good. But it’s not a lot of options in my field.
But my mom decided to put me to program that sponsored by our government that pays for studying abroad. But after this program, when I finish my master degree, I have to comeback to my country and work for government for 5 years. And I don’t think I will learn something in 3D animation in short period like 1 and half years. I would not have opportunity to improve and have work experience abroad cause I will have to comeback to my country where this field isn’t developed. And I will start studying in 2025 September. I have to wait one year to start studying. I can’t go abroad to work and earn money cause I have to prepare documents for this program. I’m so tired of my life, I just want to become independent and earn my own money but I feel like I got stuck because of this program i didn’t want to study.
And I’m trying to find job, but it’s hard without communication skills and with mental problems. I just want to travel more and have fun while I’m still young. I’m almost 26 and didn’t experience anything in my life and have so many unsolved mental health problems. After graduating I will comeback and work till mid 30s. I wanted to see world more before adulthood. I don’t think I will have time to travel while I will study. And please don’t judge me harshly that I am not trying harder.
Is it good idea to study abroad that sponsored by government?
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