I feel like I'm currently living a double life. My parents and family wanted to raise as a religous, very traditional waiting till marriage girl but it's like I'm lying to them and myself. It feels like they tried to force that on me. They're famous words ''you'll thank us later''. Yeah right, lol. I really can't wait to move out soon and enjoy life how I want to. My friends' parents don't force them to be religous nor a lifestyle they don't want to practice nor care about; all they care about is their child is happy.
I've stopped believing in Santa Claus, saints, god and anything I can't see from the time I was 7. I feel freedom with my friends, in college and with other people vs trapped at home.
I get where my parents and family are coming from. They're not from here. It makes sense but unfortunately I don't share their beliefs, music (I hate their indigenous Peruvian songs and they don't like my heavy metal either), ideas, lifestyle, conservative views nor religion.
I've stopped believing in Santa Claus, saints, god and anything I can't see from the time I was 7. I feel freedom with my friends, in college and with other people vs trapped at home.
I get where my parents and family are coming from. They're not from here. It makes sense but unfortunately I don't share their beliefs, music (I hate their indigenous Peruvian songs and they don't like my heavy metal either), ideas, lifestyle, conservative views nor religion.
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I lied to my family about believing in god. I lied to them about everything.
Without their pressure, I would be a normal girl that currently doesn't care about children, religion nor commitment at this point. I'm only 19... too young.
Without their pressure, I would be a normal girl that currently doesn't care about children, religion nor commitment at this point. I'm only 19... too young.
