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Is there a way to escape from toxic shame? or does it never get better?

Leapfrog00

Toxic shame is the feeling of worthlessness and self-loathing, which comes with the feeling of embarrassment. It usually starts from moments in your childhood. For example, your parents constantly told you that you weren't good enough.

So, when you become an adult, your communication skills may suffer, you end up with horrible social anxiety, and you feel that you are not worth anything.

I recently discovered this is why I've been having self-esteem issues and constantly live in worry and fear. I find myself getting embarrassed with every person I talk to. I worry I make people hate me.

The worse part about toxic shame is even if none of this is true, I still believe it is in my head. I can't talk to anyone without feeling embarrassed and ashamed of myself for not saying the right thing. Way after conversations are over, my mind wanders, and I can't help but think how many dumb things I said.

I stay in my apartment all the time because it's too dangerous to walk around town where I live. There are drug dealers everywhere, drug addicts everywhere, and prostitutes who trade their bodies for drugs, or sale themselves to buy them.

I am so relieved I figured out what is wrong with me. At least there's a name for it. Has anyone else experienced this? Is there a way to escape from it?

Is there a way to escape from toxic shame? or does it never get better?
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