I’m 27 yo & live in another city. I cut ties with my family. I haven’t spoken/visited them for years because of the pain they caused me.
It was during primary school-junior high school. My parents used to abuse me every time I started acting up. My dad would slapped me, pinched me, kicked my butt, hit me with a stick/belt, & even kicked my belly. I felt like he hated me.
My mom saw & never did anything. She sometimes be the instigator & told my dad about what I did/said so that he would beat me.
One time, she even threatened me with a knife & I was in the primary school I think.
The worst part is, they only did the abusing to ME. I have 2 sisters & 1 brother & they’re also naughty, but every time they did something or they cried, it’s me who they blamed. I got all the beatings.
Last month I had to talk with my sisters because I hate it that they created an Instagram account with my Twitter username. Apparently they’d been stalking my Twitter until I finally put it on private. Then, they started preaching me about me being a bad daughter, that I should be grateful that I still have my parents, that they agreed with my abusive parents & what they did before were justified since I was such a rebel. I blocked them again after that.
In results, I can’t control my emotions. I get angry easily over small things. I have a short fuse. All I want is to be happy & to be loved unconditionally.
I have a boyfriend now but he doesn’t really know my family situation. I really wanna settle down, have my own family & move abroad where my family won’t be able to disturb me but I’m afraid. Will anyone wanna be someone who’s such a mess & miserable like me? Will anyone wanna live forever with me?
It was during primary school-junior high school. My parents used to abuse me every time I started acting up. My dad would slapped me, pinched me, kicked my butt, hit me with a stick/belt, & even kicked my belly. I felt like he hated me.
My mom saw & never did anything. She sometimes be the instigator & told my dad about what I did/said so that he would beat me.
One time, she even threatened me with a knife & I was in the primary school I think.
The worst part is, they only did the abusing to ME. I have 2 sisters & 1 brother & they’re also naughty, but every time they did something or they cried, it’s me who they blamed. I got all the beatings.
Last month I had to talk with my sisters because I hate it that they created an Instagram account with my Twitter username. Apparently they’d been stalking my Twitter until I finally put it on private. Then, they started preaching me about me being a bad daughter, that I should be grateful that I still have my parents, that they agreed with my abusive parents & what they did before were justified since I was such a rebel. I blocked them again after that.
In results, I can’t control my emotions. I get angry easily over small things. I have a short fuse. All I want is to be happy & to be loved unconditionally.
I have a boyfriend now but he doesn’t really know my family situation. I really wanna settle down, have my own family & move abroad where my family won’t be able to disturb me but I’m afraid. Will anyone wanna be someone who’s such a mess & miserable like me? Will anyone wanna live forever with me?
