I guess you could say. I Feel Lost?

[relax24]

For a very long time. I have been feeling really lost.

What i mean by this is. my father was an abuser and has nothing to do with me. my mum passed away. and my relatives what nothing to do with me. so I'm all by myself with no support.

this is one of the hardest things to talk about because i don't know how to feel. or what to do etc

[NamerOfStars]

Well, it sounds like you're not happy with where you are; and being THAT isolated is rough. Not only can it lead you into pretty rough places (like being homeless and facing down the long, slow spiral into death by malnutrition, and not really caring; DAMN, but that sucked), but it's pretty bad in itself.

I'd suggest you start getting involved in some local activities; build up your social network, start making friendships (it's tricky in adulthood, but not impossible), and work from there.

[relax24]

Really appreciate your advice. and yeah constantly isolated, no phone calls, no visits. just no nothing... can make you feel very unhappy. if im being completely honest. friendships don't work out. I have tried quite a few times. talking with others. i can never figure out why?

[NamerOfStars]

That's rough. Do you tend to have better luck holding it together while you're doing something in common?

[relax24]

I wouldn't know it never progresses to lets be friends and hangout do something fun stage. it only starts with talking to them for awhile. they get weirded out. make up some excuse to leave and conversations over.

[NamerOfStars]

That sucks. I'm not sure what to say.