The girl I love has changed into a different person, and I'm truly lost and don't know what to do.

In September 2006, I fell in love with this girl on first sight. I don't know why it happened, but it did, and I couldn't control it. Throughout that year till about June 2007, I started trying to forget about her. I spent loads of money, I began cutting myself, writing hundreds of poems. I even got to a stage in which I didn't eat or drink for a week. None of that worked, so by the end of 2007 I decided that I wanted to ask her out and see how it went. I began dating her in January 2008. Before I met her, I knew she was a cold hearted person who didn't really want love, but I made her fall in love with me, and I loved the loving person she was now.

Throughout the year, we had a lot of fights but we did settle our fights at all times. For the first few months, it was great, we loved each other and enjoyed our time together. Summer came, and we talked only a bit for the summer. When it was September, I felt as if she were changing into a different person. I continued to hold on hoping it would just be a phase that would past. However, this wasn't really true.

In January, we broke up for a day, but she called me the next day asking for another chance to be together. We continued the relationship but I knew it was rocky. A lot of things happened in these next two months, as she began becoming more cold hearted. She even pushed me away in front of another guy who used to like her (we were at a mall and when I wanted to grab her hand she just pushed it away twice), and it was the most hurtful thing I've ever see someone do.

In March, we broke up because I confronted her about the way she talked to the guy, but she said they were only friends. For the past few months, we've only been talking now and then, but she calls me in the middle of the night sometimes and tells me how much she misses me. I knew that the person who was calling me was the one who loved me. Yesterday, we talked about this, and she told me that the person I loved was dead. I honestly didn't even know who I was talking to anymore. She talked to me like a cold hearted bitch and all I could do is just sit there and remember the girl I once love. The girl who wrote me a ton of letters telling me how much she loved me. The girl I held in my hands and I loved with my heart.

I did the most romantic things I could think of, and I treated her like no other, but I always felt that she didn't really appreciate me. Right now, I'm in love with a girl who's dead and this girl has been transformed into a cold hearted girl. She said she'll give me a chance (I can see her on monday), but I don't even know what I want anymore. How can I continue to love a dead person, and how can she even say that she cares about me and loves me when she isn't even the same person?

I've tried getting over her and moving on, but nothing seriously seems to help. My question here is.. What should I do. I'm honestly lost and I really don't know what I can do.
The girl I love has changed into a different person, and I'm truly lost and don't know what to do.
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