Girl's Behavior

Dear Gag Community, I'm Really not a Bad Girl, You just Don't Know Me That Well.

Preface: When I became a member of Girls Ask Guys, I thought I'd be signing up to freely express my feelings about the world events around me; I thought I could ask reasonable questions about the facts of life, without hatred or bigotry. Well... I guess I was wrong. So far I've been taking plently of punishment and ridicule everytime I freely voice myself, in ways that our fragile Western World cannot handle. I really did not mean to hurt or harm anyone whom was a part of a small minority; for I too, am a minority myself as an autistic and genuine Christian, who has made an effort to walk the straight-and-narrow. I also confess, you may be reading this, thinking I'm bullcrapping-I'm not. I'd really like to do my best in this my Take, to lessen the blows you may have experienced when reading my messages about the controversial subjects I wrote about. (Homosexuality) *ahem* *cough* *cough*. To start off:



Dear Gag Community, I'm Really not a Bad Girl, You just Don't Know Me That Well.





  • It's Difficult to Be Light Hearted in A Dark World.


Social Situations have always been difficult for someone on the Autisim Spectrum-no matter how highly funtioning an Asperger's person can be. It's even worse when an Asperger's individual gets involved with politics and world issues, while attempting to be friendly. Sometimes, I don't always know how to be light-hearted and build relationships with people, when they might differ from me. It's a struggle. I remember the time when I was friendly towards a cross-dressing girl, named Amy*, in the eighth grade. She was the nicest and funniest girl I ever met, and she did not have to be pretty or smart to make me want to paint her nails deep blue or play Uno at lunch over a cheeseburger. But, after she became a lesbian after succumbing to the utter brokenness of her shattered family life and self-esteem, (Her father was thrown in prison for domestic violence.) I was not always sure how I could still be her friend, after I told her that I was a traditonal, family-oriented, Christian, which did not condone her new lifestyle. *(Not her real name)* She eventually moved away to a new town with her aunt Jenna, roughly an hour drive from where I used to live, where she fell into a deeper depression. To make the matter worse, my father was fired from his corporate job over a sexual harrassment case involving two girls whom were like Amy and I. Gay and Straight, basically. My father tried to apologetically assuage the conflict by telling Robyn* to leave the hetrosexual *Rachel alone-saying that she's still likeable, even for being "gay", but should still back off around ladies whom are not interested in women that way. A week later his politically correct boss, fired him for homophobic behavior. I guess, you could say that's the root of my own "homophobic" and "Anti- Special Gay Rights", behavior. I want everyone-Gay or Straight, Christian or Atheist, to live a life of fair peace and prosperity. I did not understand why my father had to be treated that way. I did not understand at fourteen, why I had to become so poor and economically disadvantaged-to the point where I had strangers bring me school supplies and food to my home, just because my father and the rest of my family was not culturally acceptable in the corporate world. Now members of the Ally and LGBT community, please be so kind to not insult my family and spare me from additional statistics on LGBT suicides; you are not the only ones in the whole world who want to take one's life, and you are no acception when it comes to taking ownership over your reaction to other people's thoughts about what they think of you. My father almost attempted suicide my sophomore year of high school after he lost his 22 year old carrer. That job as a call-center manager fed his family, kept his wife warm at night, and gave me stability as a child. Ever since then, I has not been the same, and for years I've been angry at the "Gay" Lobby for their ridiculous idea of "if you are not for me, then you are against me"-stop it! That almost annihilated my family life. I'd love to love-on the LGBT crew, but there crazy ramblings have frightened me from entering a friendship with any of them. Most of my old LGBT friends on Facebook, I had to sadly erase from my list after they went senile over the new Supreme Court ruling. (Which, according to my governmental civics teacher, is not a legit law). Sometimes, I wish that I could easily write about my interests in fashion, food, fun fitness, and history without any deeper thoughts bothering me. I wish that the more liberal groups could swallow their pride and understand my frusteration and angst, in regards to their behavior. I wish that Christ would return and then my worries shall be no more. Backtracking to how my father felt, I too, have battled an addiction to self-harm/suicide, since early high school and felt the same hopelessness the LGBT commune felt-and I'm a straight lady! I felt like my ASD and my senstive persona could not take on the broken human earth, with optimisim and joy. We don't want to kill ourselves because someone broke us, but rather we seek to die because we are already dead inside, and to handle addtional pain from others is overkill.



  • I Wish Non-Beleivers Would Study the Bible Better Before They Judge My Charater.


We live in a fallen world where good and evil are tough to discern. Even so called "religious peoples" are not always truthful in their life walk with God-some don't even know God! I have heard many heckling comments from many Anti-Thesit Liberals, regarding the Torah and why I was never sold into slavery among the sheep and cattle. Well, dearest Liberals, the Jewish Law was not meant to be taken in that context. The Law was made to punish us for our rebellion against God, bibically speaking. That was to tell us that we were sick in the mind and heart, and in need of Jesus Christ to rescue us from our final, hellish destination. Yes, even after Jesus did his noble deed, it still remains to condemn, but only if you choose to deny Christ and follow yourself. Remember that when debating against a fellow follower of Jesus.



  • I wish GAG was More Interpersonal When Discussing Societal Problems.


This could clear some of the confusion of writing messages on a screen. Tone of voice and facial expressions can make everything more meaningful.



  • What We Are Dealing With Currently, Has Nothing To Do With Equality or Bigotry.


We are becoming closer and closer to the end times, where people will act like how humanity was before the time of Noah in the Bible. Our sinful tendencies have lead us to issues like abortion, sexual assault, Kim Davis going against a federal judge, The Sweet Cakes trial and etc. It will only get worse if we countinue to turn away from how things used to be in the past and as I wait for Christ to return-from my perspective.


I Really Hope That All Can Be Fixed Between Us.


Sincerly,


The Ginger.

Dear Gag Community, I'm Really not a Bad Girl, You just Don't Know Me That Well.
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