Am I in love with my female boss or is it just a girl crush?

[Anonymous]

I've not been in my job too long, but over the past few weeks I've become infatuated with my female boss. I've never had a lesbian relationship before, or anything remotely close - never even kissed a girl! I've always admired other women and had what I thought were just 'girl crushes' but these were mainly/nearly only on celebrities/girls I've never met. Which makes perfect sense to me, as that's just like 'idolising' or 'hero worshipping' someone as you don't know them and see their flaws etc.

But this seems different. I think about her all the time, and knowing she's at work makes me so happy to go in every day. When i'm at work i'm determined to do my best and impress her and show off my talents as much as possible. Which again, isn't too unlike me as I'm a bit of a teachers pet! But I've never felt like this before. Everyone else in my office hates her as she's 'the boss' but she's always been lovely to me, so I can't help but like her. When someone slags her off I kind of feel bad for her, as she's incredibly nice and supportive to me.

I'm just feeling really confused right now, i don't know whether i'm falling for her or if it's just a plain and simple girl crush. I never really think any sexual thoughts about her, but at the same time i'm just so obsessed and infatuated with her, i think she's amazing!

Help! Has anyone else ever been in a similar position?

[Anonymous]

I don't know anything about you and I'm not here to judge, but what you said reminds me of a mother hunger I've dealt with. This woman has power and authority over you and you desire affirmation and affection from her. That mimics a mother daughter relationship. It's not sexual at all, just your way of trying to meet something that wasn't met. Why not try journaling or even counseling to work through what you're feeling, whatever it is?

[Asker]

I've just googled it and it seems like an interesting theory. I can definitely see what you mean as all I seem from her is more of a platonic love.
Weirdly though I had a single mother most of my life who I am incredibly close with, so I'm not sure if it would be that?

[Opinion Owner]

I have read about father hunger paired with closeness to mother conditioning females to be drawn to other females, too. But then again, I have no way of knowing what is real and what is applicable. I apologize for any inaccuracy.

[jman46241]

I just think you kind of idolize her. Before too long you'll wander back and say to yourself.. What was I thinking?

[Cody3180]

Maybe you just like the power she has or how she has power over you