Ugh I feel like I'm such a kid?

[Anonymous]

I work in the hospital as a CNA (PATIENT CARE TECH).

I sit alone by myself down the hall while the others chat and sit up by them. One of the nurses (she's 24, and I'm 25) was telling the other nurse that she sometimes sits down in the middle of the hallway so I'm not all alone. I went up tonight and was talking but I'm quiet and have social anxiety. I've always been quiet. But I'm 25, I don't know I feel like I'm cognitively impaired. But my therapist says it's anxiety. Do you think they think something is wrong? Or? I just don't want them to think I'm impaired or dumb. I want to be confident.

[Rosexøxø]

A snow leopard in solitude is not seen as impaired.

Intelligence cannot be fully decided and concluded by the simple image of a person who stands by other persons, or not.

Can you tell if a zebra, away from the herd is impaired in any way? 🦓

He/she stands by the watering hole, while the others stand in the sun grazing.

I don’t see a difference from them, do you?

We all live different lives, sis.

You are not alone, when you are with your hobby- in the medical field. There should always be something to do, or something that you want to be doing and building there. When you aren’t, you’re resting, and letting your body and mind take a break.

You don’t wish to be with your hobby? You wish to be with these other people and their hobbies? Are those hobbies better than yours?

Most of them will talk about their hobbies and talk of other people more successful or failing at their own hobbies.

These nurses are temporarily distracted and slightly delayed.

The conversations may bring a ray of relatability, and some humor, but they aren’t clowns. Not stand up comedians. It’s not their job to make each other or make you laugh.

You can laugh at anything, you can watch real comedians in your spare time. You can make comments and ask questions, if you wish.

No one is superior there. You’re not lower than they. You all play a part in the hospital. All part of the herd. You just get to decide what you will do there.

Do not let your happiness be dependent on their looks/acknowledgement/ head turns/ their recognition/ or compliments.

Do something you love, that you think will make people take notice, if that is what you wish for. Otherwise, have fun learning more about you, and developing the tools and skills that you have.

Life is too short to be lived sad, angry, or in fear.

Live it happy. Live it well. Make it you <:)

❤️💜❤️💜❤️💜

(there is nothing wrong with you and many things wrong with all of us, as a living and breathing world. Just allow yourself to see it, experience it, and grow).

[dustybiker]

Here’s an idea. These people are in a caring field so you can’t go wrong. (It will only be difficult for 30 seconds)

Walk up to them and be honest. Tell them you have a hard time getting to know people and apologize. Ask if they can help you join in with them.

Next thing you know you’ve earned their trust (by being honest) and cleared their worries (that you might not like them) They’ll be all over you chatting then. Very welcoming too.

[MementoMori777]

Who cares, the easier your job is the better, easy cash is better than sweat and tears cash, it's crap they can't blame you for if you think of it

[kylee2437]

Being confident starts with accepting who you are as a person. If you can’t accept the fact that you have some kind of social anxiety /anxiety going on, the less likely you are able to try to fix the issue.

[Rosexøxø]

Maybe it’s not social anxiety, it could be a plethora of things such as the possibility she sees people as ‘cruel.’ Then she would need to readjust her *perspective,* or work onwards from that in a positive way, if she wished to. If she got to where she is, I don’t think that could be a social anxiety. I didn’t have social anxiety at my high school. I very much disliked the kids I attended with. I “deleted” all my friends senior year, and lived the semi (school work) freest / free-ist time of my life.

[Rosexøxø]

I think you’re spot on about self acknowledging and self awareness. That’s always gonna be helpful in the long run. I don’t think any of us but her could properly identify what the hold up was. Maybe? 🤔

[kylee2437]

You are totally correct. I suffer with seeing people as cruel myself, but I am also self aware enough to not run away from my issue or try to cover it up. You simply can’t run away from the issue, but you can become self aware and work on it. Trust me, it gets me every day lol I’m a waitress and also a college student. I smoked a few hits of weed today before a class presentation to ease up my anxiety. It’s not easy to deal with

[Asker]

It's awful, I don't wish anxiety on anyone but it shouldn't excuse me from being socially distant.

[Rosexøxø]

🤧 fulfilling content/joy/ satisfaction outside of it helps, and learning to see the ‘good’ in them makes it bearable and less unconquerable. This is definitely a vibe! I have experienced this before, but it turned to some mild anger- fortunately for me lol Otherwise, I am completely comfortable at finding things to laugh at others about in the breath of life I breathe. I told the asker. Life is too short to be lived, sad, angry, or afraid. 😲

I’m sure you’d nail any presentation because you write well, and you’re an observant person- from what I can tell. Us observers must not let what we observe- to be anything final or daunting 🤝

Best to you sis. Best to all of us 🙏 😄

[Anonymous]

Your therapist can probably help with this more than us on a random web site.