I’m super new realizing I’m bi and only has one girl crush lol. Recently I started seeing my 1st girl crush at work a lot this past week, and it made me realized I have unresolved feelings about her.
Basically we were super cool when we first met in 2021, I just felt like I could be myself with her & she understood me in a way I wished a guy would understood me as a partner. I thought she was always flirting, but I wasn’t reciprocating. I guess one day I realize maybe I do like her. People at work kept pushing me to try flirting with her. I was slowly doing it.. then we finally exchange numbers & everything changed -she seemed different. I tried to hang with her but she said cuz Covid we should used discord to watch something together. Then, she backed out last min saying she actually felt uncomfortable because she felt like some comments I said was flirty. I was shocked, upset, confuse, & hurt.. I felt so misled. I didn’t wanna get into potential trouble at work incase of harassment cases because those things could happen. So I turned it back to her that I thought she was the one flirting and I just wanted to be friends. But I guess we could just be co-workers. She didn’t denied it or anything except that we can go forward as co-workers.
I saw her monthsss later at a goodbye coworker party, before she left, she told me it was really nice to see me and asked how I’m doing.. but I wasn’t ready to forget what happened. I kept it short and then other people was trying to talked to her.
Basically we were super cool when we first met in 2021, I just felt like I could be myself with her & she understood me in a way I wished a guy would understood me as a partner. I thought she was always flirting, but I wasn’t reciprocating. I guess one day I realize maybe I do like her. People at work kept pushing me to try flirting with her. I was slowly doing it.. then we finally exchange numbers & everything changed -she seemed different. I tried to hang with her but she said cuz Covid we should used discord to watch something together. Then, she backed out last min saying she actually felt uncomfortable because she felt like some comments I said was flirty. I was shocked, upset, confuse, & hurt.. I felt so misled. I didn’t wanna get into potential trouble at work incase of harassment cases because those things could happen. So I turned it back to her that I thought she was the one flirting and I just wanted to be friends. But I guess we could just be co-workers. She didn’t denied it or anything except that we can go forward as co-workers.
I saw her monthsss later at a goodbye coworker party, before she left, she told me it was really nice to see me and asked how I’m doing.. but I wasn’t ready to forget what happened. I kept it short and then other people was trying to talked to her.
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There was another work event where we sat in circle, she was trying hard to rekindled our old talks. It was good, but I kept distance cuz I was confuse. She seemed cold & quiet after that whenever I did see her 1:1 few times at work last year. This year I started running into her abit more 1:1 & it seems cold too. But when we are in groups, i usually have fun joking/talking to others, I feel like she was starring at me or I looked up seeing her stare at me.
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1 y
I try to act like I don’t notice. This week I ran into her, was tryna go to get work done, I coincidentally told her I wasn’t thinking straight cuz I was feeling sick. She actually seemed to worried.. & I felt confuse again. So I kept my distance/guards up.
