Is it wrong to wonder why you were treated so poorly in a relationship?

[Anonymous]

Like people can tell you to move on like it’s 1 girl and it doesn’t define you but the reality is my brain fixates on how I was constantly called a stupid motherfucker a nuisance, called a bitch she hit me twice, I was bending over to pet our dog and she kicked me in the ass. Like I was always there for her I was kind to her never called her any foul names, always did spontaneous nice things, cared about her health and was by her side when she got Covid, I actually ended up contracting it because I wanted to make sure she was taken care of and comfortable. I took her to her favorite show. I just don’t understand like I understand no attraction but to be treated like less than a person. To back up all this her own family said she treated me like shit. Her mom was scared she was gonna chase me off which ultimately did end up happening

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Appreciate your opinions

[Anonymous]

The problem is, people don't see their own flaws, so they always put the blame on the other person.

[Asker]

I can’t tell if you are speaking about me or in defense of her but I will tell you how these things played out we were playing video games 1 night she was losing so she hauled off and hit me in the head. I was slow reacting to our dog once so she smacks me in the head. The last I don’t even know how to describe cause she ran up and kicked me from behind. I have my own flaws I 100% do but none of it triggered this abuse like I legitimately don’t like myself because I gave someone like this a chance.