Will this take time?

I think I'm a lost cause.


I'm 27, and I'm quiet. I've had people tell me I need to tell them no often, especially at work. I started a new job, and I'm kind of picking up on it, I don't want to make the same mistake. I want to be assertive and hold confidence so people don't think it's okay to mess around with me.

I want to be the one who doesn't take shit from anyone, and they know it. They say I'm sweet, but I don't think I am. I'm quiet and bubbly if that makes sense.

One girl comes in, and you can just tell she doesn't take shit from anyone. I want to be like that.

I feel like maybe it's too late... :/ All my life, I've been like this. And people always look out for me. But I want to be the one who looks out for others.

This girl I work with is like in charge of the house she's been here for 3 years, and she takes charge. She's younger than me too. I'll ask her to work for me and she tells me she won't be able to work for me cause of the new policy.

But maybe it's cause she's been here for three years and I've been here 3 months. She probably was in the same spot as me when she first started? I don't know, maybe I'm overthinking this. I just see my friends getting married and getting in relationships, I still live at home. I am not really attractive. There's a chance I can't have kids. I have dental work that needs to be done, I'm 27 and don't have anything. I feel like life is going faster than anything.

At my last job, my coworkers told me I needed to say no more. I was older than most of them, and they were nurses. I am a CNA.

I don't know I hate confrontation. I have a baby face, and people think I'm younger.
I don't know. I just wish things were different. I don't think I'm ever going to be able to have kids, I don't have health insurance and haven't gotten my period for months.
Everyone thinks I'm sweet, but I suck at being social and I dont want to be like this. I want people to know I don't take shit from anyone.

Will this take time to fix?
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