For all you people that suffer from depression my take on it :) hope it helps

[Kingfrosty]

This song bring back a lot of memorys thats why im writing this

The focus of my depression was love ,I craved it i lusted for it .I knew i could have sex with any hot girl i knew and i could be rich.I could of become a pro soccer player ,But all i wanted was love from the love of my life.I didn't have dreams of being a pro soccer player or anything .I wanted the one thing that you couldnt have just because you are alive and on this planet.

"Its the one thing many think they have,but few really have it"

The thing is i didn't want any girl ,i wanted a type of girl,WhIch was my problem and i grew up on love movies and since i didn't have any goals because i knew i could have anything.I wanted a devoted all my time 2 finding her.Grades where shit because of it but i tried for 2 weeks and always past and went back 2 looking for her.My first girl i fell in love with and i thought no other girl compared 2 her, was her friend for nine years (i wasn't that attractive back then 5 ).Then i had i couple other girls liked that but nothing really speical Until i was 17 and danced with this girl after seeing her in the hall way she was friends with my buddy's i fell for her in a heart beat Her blue eyes her curvy's and her black hair that was down 2 her tits .i can remember how much love made me think how beautiful she was.I sent every lunch with her wrote her love notes.She fell for me 2 But all the things in my past kinda fucked up how i thought and sooner or later it would come crashing down.I went 2 unversity for electrical left all my friends behind 2 start my new life. I can't say that i didn't have girlfriends in all that time but they werent anything special.But i thought of her up until i was done that class and found out she moved on 7 months after me leaving.She made me feel alive for once and everything about her the way she talked to how she looked at me like i was so interesting and i was her everything,that look was amazing and what i wouldn't give 2 have her look at me in that way again .she's the type of girl that if she got with a guy its for life.that body you see in the pic was for her worked for 3 hours a day till the pain i couldnt stand .Because the pain ment nothing without her .The truth was i wasn't ready for her and still may not be ready for that.I did meet her boyfriend and i have 2 say she picked the right guy for her .But After all that i like my self now even after hating my self wishing that i i fixed my self turn my self into something i was worthly of her.But the thing is i should of been doing that for my self i should of worked out everyday to have the body i always wanted i should of studied so i could have a future.For all you people that hate your self trust me i know what its like but really no need 2 hate your self.Trust me the light is right around the corner Once you see it you will love your self understand you self .As long as you are willing 2 put into the work its a long path trust me but im happy that i went down it.I like everything about my self and im 110% more happy even when something goes wrong its chill because i know at the end of my highway i lived my life how i wanted 2 ,I never didn't do something because i was affraid of it hurting my feelings.This is really i guess just my story of a guy that one day just didn't take no as ansr i got up went 2 and work for 8 hours day went 2 school for 3 hours then worked out for 2 hours and went 2 sleep.2 start it all the next day.This may make me sound weak and all that stuff because i know in this world weakness is horrible 2 show but it was my life and i dont regret any of it .It make me into the person i always wanted 2 be yes i may be an asshole sometime Thats me and i love my self more than anyonne else could ever love me.This idea you need someone 2 be happy its bullshit andi hope this helps someone .Its my Christmas present 2 the world

I hope you all have a good Christmas ,i can assure you that if you keep trying and fighting for it ,you can have anything in this life.