I'm trying to figure her out.

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I'm trying to figure out this friend of mine. Its a long story so

ill keep it as short as I can. We met some years ago, I was intimidated by her so I made a fool of myself in front of her many, many times...(I could give more details on what I did but if you ask I will tell you)

We recently started to hang out after going separate ways from college, because I was a little weird around her then. We weren't close or even really friends at all. We started to talk online but that was all. Recently years later we have been hanging out, we were spending a lot of time on the phone making jokes. I can make her laugh so easily, and she can be so cute with me sometimes, I'm sure we like eachothers company.

Now due to me taking some advice - I made the mistake of telling her too soon - that I was into her..it was awkward for a day...then she calls the next day and it was like it never happened...she said she had a boyfriend I took it like a man and showed no disappointment even though I was a little burned by it.

Now we still hang out - alone or now sometimes with her family and a friend or two but when its just us on the phone she laughs at everything I say, she's cute with me, little kid stuff like if I push

her for no reason shell come back harder a little childish...but i

just don't know how else to let her know without saying it and ruining whatever is happening, now I'm not trying to ruin her relationship, if she really is in one, I'm sure its possible that she wants to be just friends it just really doesn't seem like that at all...the way she acts, the way we talk I have been wrong in the past and I'm afraid that I'm wrong again. When she wants me to come out with her - now its usually with some friends and her brother, but when I ask her to come out with me and my cousins and friends - she seems so nervous and usually finds a reason not to come.

Whenever we talk - I am so hyper - I have so much energy anyways that's what she says. She says I'm weird and hyper and laughs. Its like she likes me but she doesn't want too and I like her but I wish I didnt..

When we first met I was infatuated because she's beautiful..now I fell in love with her personality...it is so easy to fall for her and I did again but now I just make her laugh - and never mention anything like feelings...

Another thing is when we give each other hugs it is always awkward - like she tries not to get too close, but when I make fun of her she looks at me in a way, that I feel she is into me I feel terrible even hopeless - I don't want to be wrong - what do you think...
I'm trying to figure her out.
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