Advice with girl who thinks I'm stalking her?

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This is long, but ANY feedback would be VERY appreciated!

I absolutely hate school except for the fact I can be around people and socialize. if it weren't for that, I wouldn't bother. I wouldn

I'm probably just infatuated with this girl at my HS. But regardless, I just want to treat her well and care for her. I heard a rumor she's had a rough history with guys just trying to get into her pants and has no respect for them (she's drop dead gorgeous). But though I'm very attracted to her, I really would just want to treat her well and do nice things for her. I know her from a sport last year, I spent time around her during lunch, and it was really nice. Then, I said the wrong thing (told her she shouldn't put up with her boyfriend telling her what to do). Things went downhill and she thought I was creepy and a stalker, when I wouldn't give her space (my mistake). When I realized my mistake, I gave her space, from January-April, when I decided to do something nice and leave her an anonymous compliment online. Bad move. After some chatting, she figured out it was me and she thought I was even more of a creeper/stalker. In September, I apologized to her and we made up. But then I screwed up again and made a bad joke. I said "Stalking me again ____?". So I've been giving her space since then again, totally ignoring her.

I was planning on talking to her again, but didn't have a chance to today.

So today, I walked past her, within 10 feet or so, to talk to friends after school. About 5 minutes later, I walked back towards the library to talk to other friends. She was about 30 feet away to the right (I was walking in a different direction, straight), but she looked at me (I saw out of the corner of my eye), tugged a friends shoulder, and walked away. I have a feeling it was because I was coming closer. When I got home, I just broke down in tears. You have no idea how much that hurt. My social awkwardness keeps getting in the way, and it's just painful… Any advice?

I'm not thinking of her or looking totally. But it's like as soon as she enters a room, a part of me starts to think about her and focus on her.

Please don't judge me.
Advice with girl who thinks I'm stalking her?
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