How do I move on in life? Do I have any use to people aside from being a sex object and being a victim of harassment and bullying?

[Remnaourei2]

I think I am autistic. Like that i have aspergers. I am extremely quiet, extremely shy, cold, and mechanical. I feel i am warm inside but clearly it is not comprable to how others are warm. I like warm sweet nice people. But I fear they will never like me back. I come off cold. I am extremely shy. I can pick up and am effected immediately by everyone's emotions even subtle ones. I can pick them up with a glance or what have you.

Yes despite being a mechanical cold woman. People may see me and know me for ages and think i am just an empty vessel but I pic up on others feelings and identify them. Even if I can't express myself or my emotions or that I see other's emotions.
The only social things I have excelled at are being quietly accepting as i am being bullied or harassed or being a potential sexobject used like a doll for whoevers purposes in sex. I dont fornicate but i am saying this is the type of attention i get from humans. This is my only worth to them.

Being cold, nobody likes me.

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And i dont blame people for not liking me. I wouldn't like someone like me.

[Crafteroon]

An empty vessel is filled by whatever is thrown inside. A full vessel just has leaves or dirt on top.

Ignore others and become the full vessel first. If you have no substance in life of course you will be affected by others. Do what makes you happy first, find the things and hobbies where you excel.

I'm sure you will meet people that way who see your value then. Don't measure yourself how others do, measure others how you find them worthy, and be with those people.

[Remnaourei2]

Im confused... I am good at mechanical solitary things

[Crafteroon]

If you think you are autistic, go to a doctor and make sure. Some people understand you better if you have the documents and the keywords to explain your situation.

Not sure what you are confused about. I'm saying it's better to make yourself feel better alone first, and only after that make contact with others.

[Remnaourei2]

Haha are you serious? I have been a loner for over a decade!

[Crafteroon]

And yet you keep focusing on how others see you, and make it seem like the opinion of others has a big influence you. You're the one asking for opinions, I'm just going with what you have told me.

[Remnaourei2]

Im confused. But ok. Back to your original answer: i value warmth in people but as i said do those people ever like me and want me around? No. I can see on their faces they think i am cold or lacking. They want to be around those who can engage in small talk and do what NTs do.

[Crafteroon]

Is your life otherwise the way you want it to be, are the relationships the only thing you are missing, or the thing you feel affects you the most?

You seem to project quite a bit about how others might see you based on what you want and what you dislike about your own behavior. It's true some will think that, but assuming everyone does is a bit harsh and untrue if it's all based on how you see them.

[Remnaourei2]

Relationships effect me a lot... And i want good ones and close ones. Thanks i guess youreright i can't assume what others think.

[DavidRaul]

You are really wrong. Its just you choose the wrong set of people. Believe me i am almost same as you, emotionless on the outside. But i qiite get along with people really well , only with a certain set of people. And please get away from people who just use you for sex , you are more than that. I am sure you will find some good people in your life.

[Remnaourei2]

Thank you.