I don’t know how to say this since I been thinking about it for awhile. I thought having different people’s opinions on this would help me out. So it’s this guy that I knew since high-school ( 10th grade) and had a crush on him since, like it was to the point I started to think he was my first love. There was times we hanged out and I started feel as though we were getting close. It was to the point our touches became more than just touches. I gather up the courage and thought I should ask him out. I did and he said “ I’m not ready for a relationship “. I was upset and was like I don't know how I can continue to be friends since I had these feelings. To fast forward things, we ended up as friends but the catch here is that he ended up dating 2 girls at the same time ( after I ask him out that time). Yea that hurt me because I really cared but being friends was for the good. So I’m in the last year of college and I still talk to him as friends and thing’s been cool. Here’s the problem, at times he would mention some things and even the little details that I thought he wouldn’t remember. At times he would reach out to talk about each other days and I started to realize he’s starting to talk like me ( like the things only I would say he would do/mimic). Since we’re older some our times we met became even more touching and somethings I ask he would say but the way he say it , was as if to not hurt me. Then at time he would keep distance and don’t talk to me then he do. ❣️I don’t know how to approach this or what to think❣️ like the connection is there and we’re really comfortable around each other but why hold on to them ( well now his 1 girlfriend) but then tell me all the things yah did. But on top of that now saying how you can’t wait to be a father but seems to direct it towards me or curious if I want kids or not. Any advice?( my bad Ik I took yah around the world with this 😅)
How should I think about this?
