was in a situation-ship w/ a guy who would leave/return, ignore my messages, it took a toll on my mental health. i ended up really codependent and chasing him, did something really stupid (a loyalty test which he took the bait for), also found out he was trying to get back with his ex while having me as a friend with benefits. i approached his ex, she apologized on his behalf for how traumatized i got and for being a casualty between two people who were confused about each other. he blocked me everywhere immediately, he was ignoring my messages until i had done that
i feel a lot of guilt. recently i reached out from email apologizing to him, he let the messages flow in but blocked as soon as i asked for closure/expressed how his behavior made me feel. i later reached out from an old sim/phone i have (he still hasn’t blocked) apologized again, got drunk days later and sent him a picture of my friend and i out, and again apologizing. he responded the next night and said i don’t owe him one. that my behavior was worrying and he thinks some space is best. he said i’m a good person with lots to offer and maybe we can reconnect in the future. i thanked him, agreed on space and asked if he was okay
he took the conversation to whatsapp on my original cell number so i’m sure he still has that/remembers it, regardless i’m still blocked from regular messaging/calls, and social media). he asked to discuss what happened, said i confused him w/ my actions and thought we were on the same page. i gave him an explanation about the anxiety i had, and he said he guesses he can understand. said he’s been reminiscing about the good times recently and was looking forward to what we were gonna do
