Guy's Behavior

How to handle this situation with him?

Known him since 2015. We have a great connection that we both cherish. We talk about that often. We've always talked regularly. We talk for hours every time. We don't see each other often, different countries. Last time was 2018 and he came to visit me. I told him I felt like our connection was amazing and maybe it could be a relationship. He rejected me. We kept the friendship until 2020 when I was deep into a shitty relationship. I reached out again in December 2023 after I broke up and told him that. Since January we've been talking regularly, 2-3 times per week calling, and texts in-between. He initiated all. Then he asked if we could meet. I said yes. We agreed I would come in March since I had time off then and was already going to his country. But he said that wasn't enough time so he asked about when I can take holidays. So he said he would come see me later in spring. I invited him to come with me to my home country in September or go somewhere else. He said yes. So I went in March and everything was nice we were catching up. He got drunk. He said I was sexy. I froze and didn't do anything, just smiled. I wasn't expecting that. Then walking back, he begs me not to reject him, not to hurt him. I said I wasn't rejecting him, but didn't want to talk when he was drunk. In the hotel he gave me a back massage. Nothing else happened physically. He got in bed and told me I how much he likes me. Again I froze. The next day I talk to him, but he says not now, the day after I try again and he says "forget about it". I then leave and we agree to call and plan the next travels. After a few days I wrote to him asked if I hurt him and expressed gratitude for the time together and that I was open to him and acknowledged all his initiatve/effort. I asked for clarity on his feelings. He ignored that. But now silence, just randomly texts me to say we'll talk soon. I like him so much, he is a dream. I don't want to ruin this. What do I do/say? Do I share my feelings again?
How to handle this situation with him?
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