I made a two-part question since I couldn't fit it all, Does this Christian influencer have hidden motivations towards me?

[Skarletjonancy]

I was banned from a Christian Discord server run by Jonah the. Bible. teacher after two months for making him uncomfortable. I only discussed Bible topics with him and shared my belief that God wanted us to be friends. Despite being unbanned later, a mod falsely accused me of asking for Jonah's private info and manipulating mods. When I was first banned, his mod told him to block me on IG. Later, when I apologized for any offense, Jonah responded with a but blocked my message on Facebook. He still let me interact with his Facebook page, where he did his ministry. A mod said Jonah told them he blocked me entirely on Facebook and was fine with me on another account. Neither of these claims was true; I don't know why Jonah lied. After the 2nd ban, he blocked me entirely on Facebook. Later, when I left a supportive comment on his YouTube video, Jonah confided in me about his issues with another content creator. However, during a live stream, he blocked me on YouTube when I was discussing topics related to the stream. A mod revealed Jonah excessively complained about a birthday drawing I made him, to the point of wanting me banned over it, saying it made him uncomfortable; a mod told him he was overreacting. This excessive complaining led a mod to think he had feelings for me. Others, a young lady, defended me against his mods' false accusations; Jonah blocked them. A lady heard me talk about my mistreatment by Jonah and his mods on another YT channel. She then commented underneath one of Jonah's unrelated videos, where he attempted to paint me in a bad light. He exaggerated claims and lied, leaving out the harmful actions of him and his mods. He claimed his mods were loving and caring, but evidence showed otherwise.

[SteveSmith1985]

Holy sh.. ugar. This is a toxic toxic group of people you've gotten tangled up with.

Let me start out by saying I'm not a Christian myself. I don't think that matters though.

I cannot say that I can discern that this guy has any hidden motives towards you. He may well have such motives, I just cannot see any evidence here that he does.

This whole thing is insanely toxic. The entire series of interactions over the course of (I"m guessing) weeks or months. This is not a stable situation where people are acting like you would expect any normal person to act.

I don't know whether any of this is valid (if he had good reason to feel uncomfortable).

But honestly, this is all ridiculously toxic and petty and... not a group of people that are going to be positive to have in your life.

I am struggling to even find the words to express how messed up this whole thing is. Read it back to yourself. When you put it all together, I can't help but want to strongly urge you to just leave all of these people behind, and move on to find a better group of people who share your faith.

This isn't going to suddenly become not-toxic. Ever. Its' going to be the same sorta bullshit until you get sick enough of it to leave. Save yourself the time and emotional turmoil... get away from people like this. There are lots of people and groups, who are Christian, but aren't going to put you through all this unnecessary garbage.

I don't know you, or how close you may be with this group. It might not be as simple as I'm thinking to just walk away. It's hard to read this and not just scream "walk away! "These people suck!" "Nobody needs this kinda bullshit in their life" and so on.

Sorry if it doesn't end up being helpful. But... it's very clear from the outside. You are better if you can keep these people out of your life. Good luck

🙂

[Skarletjonancy]

I'm banned and blocked by them so I'm not around them anymore. Others who commented said I sounded emotionally unstable and the other told me to grow up and act like my age. I just think it's weird that a Christian influencer who also is a teacher of God's word and a leader of a discord server would lie to his moderator claiming he blocked me and was spying on me.. it's like he didn't want his moderator to know that he was still interacting with me even though mainly indirectly on Facebook except one time he responded to something I said but quickly deleted it. The mod thought he had feelings for me because he wanted me banned over a harmless birthday drawing and the other mods told him to get over himself and stop overreacting. I have no idea what I did to get banned the second time besides the false accusations. I wonder why they wouldn't tell me what I did wrong before they banned me. I'm just traumatized I never been abused by a Christian community before. I thought I was safe

[SteveSmith1985]

I'm glad that you aren't around those people anymore. I'm sorry, but I won't be able to give you any insight into any of the particulars of why things happened the way they did. I don't know what was motivating anyone here.

It's clear that whatever happened, it was just a toxic disaster. I don't think you'll ever be able to untangle that messy weird situation with these people.

"I'm just traumatized I never been abused by a Christian community before. I thought I was safe"

I'm sorry to hear that, but this was not a normal Christian community. I may not be a Christian myself, but I"ve been friends with several, and these people you were with were just messed up.

Now, you're safe if you find yourself a good Christian community. But, it's not uncommon for bad people to use Christianity as mask over... all kinds of bad. In other words, just because a community is "Christian" doesn't mean you're necessarily with good people. These people didn't seem like "bad" people. Just ridiculously toxic, petty and unnecessarily stressful.

Just be careful who you surround yourself with. Because of the faith element, people in whatever Christian community you choose to join can have an outsized influence on you. Make sure they're the right kind of people.

I think you're better to not try and figure out what happened. You should move on and look for better people.

[Skarletjonancy]

Well they chose to intentionally keep me in the dark about everything and just gossip about me behind my back and get rid of me but this is just part one if you go to the next question in line you can get the rest of the story kind of crazy but I seriously believe that the Christian influencer the leader of the discord server same person I believe that they had feelings for me because of how inconsistent and contradictory their behavior was towards me and because of

[SteveSmith1985]

I can't say, and I don't think more details will help me untangle it. I think your best to try and move on. So if you believe he had feelings for you, then that's what you should assume is right. If these people aren't in your life anymore, then ultimately it doesn't matter whether he did, or didn't. I don't think you need to keep thinking about this. If you believe he had feelings, then assume you're right. It's not like you are going to take different actions if he does, or doesn't have feelings.