Knowing that something is not right but not knowing what and having no way to express it is the most disempowered I've ever felt. Going through life like that just coping feeling alone. Thinking nobody cares about me, nobody understands me and not caring about them in return. Always being confused about why I don't understand some things people do and why I'm different in some way. Having all these open questions weighing on me and distracting me from life.
Clarity is invaluable
It makes all the difference in the world if you know yourself. Telling a boss I'm exhausted, I can't come to work today, nobody gives a fuck about that. Telling someone you have autism is completely different, it resets expectations. Instead of treating me like someone who's just lazy or doesn't like this job they'll treat me with more respect. I like telling people I have autism not because I'm open I still have trouble opening up in other areas. But it's because I felt powerless for so long when I didn't know what was going on with me and I got constant negative feedback from people. It's pure relief to be diagnosed and not have to worry about that anymore. Having to explain my problem to someone when I'm still trying to figure it out myself and them just dismissing it, or not really getting it that's just a pain.
Communication is so important and being able to communicate the things I struggle with is the biggest difference maker in building a life for myself that is adjusted to my needs and not being constantly under pressure to fit the expectations of a "regular person". And of course also for myself to make informed decisions and plan ahead.
Free your Mind
It's not just communicating with other people we all have things that hold us back from following our dreams or being more open and confident with other people etc. I feel like these emotional issues are some of the most important things you can work on in your life. You might not realize it in day to day life but these subconscious fears, that make you avoid social gatherings or stop you from taking the leap into that thing you always wanted to do, they will shape your life. They will trap you way more than for instance a lack of money.
In the past it felt like life was trying to crush me. But now I see the world is mostly positive (at least where I live) there's so many people who try to help you out or offer some kind of service or give you advice or whatever. Nobody's trying to stop me from reaching my goals, hurt me, take away my stuff or anything like that. The only thing I have to overcome is myself and that happens in the mind. That's why this has been my #1 priority for years now and it's not gonna change anytime soon.