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My struggles with Mental Health

Anonymous

I'm going to open up about the times I've been put into hospital due to my mental health.

First Time was when I was 16, It all started with bullying in the locker room, I had girls from my team steeling my bra and laughing at the cup size drawing on them to mock my flat chest, rumours started to spread I was sleeping with the manager to make him pick me each game then I got injured and I sank into a depression spiral, It didn't help an ex team told my mom about the rumours and she asked the doctor to check my vagina as I was still virgin. It made me feel bad and I was begging doctors to give me more tablets luckily a doctor reacted and assigned someone to help me through it.

Second Time was shortly after my first miscarriage, I remember asking my midwife Am I broken, she saw it was causing me to go into depression and arranged an ultrasound to show me that despite having a tube tied I was capable of having kids.

Third time was after I was raped, I found out I was pregnant and started to worry that I was carrying one of the rapist babies, it didn't exactly help that my partner at the time started saying I allowed myself to get raped to get pregnant and he wants noting to do with kid when its born. he even tried to make me miscarry by purposely punching my stomach. During the birth I kept getting like visions of birth, one was of her being born and dieing, second one was of her being born with problems etc, the doctors were so worried about me, they had to give me medicine to calm me down but because I was out during the final part of the birth, they filmed her being born.

My struggles with Mental Health
My struggles with Mental Health
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