How can I stop these tendencies? Its haaaard?

[Drooogie4]

I'm a former bulimic. Anorexic/bulimic..
In my earlier highschool years I was really bad.. I lost about 50 pounds.. (Granted, I needed to)
I'm healthy now, thin... but by taking care of myself.
But occasionally it still kinda returns. I'll feel guilty and do it.
It hasn't been regular. But I have like twice this month and I'd stopped for a couple years. And IRS really frustrating. I hate myself for it.
I'm not even worried. I know I'm thin. It's just an impulse. And I know its unhealthy and gross.
What's the best way to control my urges more?

[minniemouse123]

well dear i am sure you are beautiful just the way you are for starts and well it will be hard because like any addiction your body sees this as something it had needed for so long it is routine. you body is rejecting the idea of not having it because it was a habit, and now that you have been trying to come clean of this addiction and are happy with the way you look is a great first step.

there are various step you can take to help control these urges, maybe those days you are feeling the urges eat just smaller portions so that your mind will accept that the amount of food you are putting into your body won't affect your body.
or you can come up with 7 words to tell yourself over and over to calm yourself down and to calm the urges, such as your : beautiful, courageous, gorgeous, intelligent, funny, flawless, and your perfect. these are all positive comments you can tell yourself to calm your subconscious and reduce the urges because you are counter acting them with positive re-enforcement about yourself.
another thing you can always do when you are getting these urges is to talk to someone you trust like a friend or family member because always remember you aren'y alone :)

i really hope this helps you gorgeous :)

[Shaker77]

I am in recovery too. Its not a sprint its a marathon. You aren't bad just sick
I go to a lot of support groups bc I need contact with other people that get me.
You are not alone

[CourtJester]

You are not alone. You should seek help in the form of support from other people who can truly understand what you are going through. There is some adrenaline rush that comes from your compulsion. That is what it is, an unhealthy compulsive behavior which you have trouble resisting. Think about the rush, the feelings you get from doing this. It's destroying your teeth and your self-esteem. Someday soon you can rise above this and you will be strong enough to help other young people with similar problems. It's like any other addiction. Just get through one day at a time without giving in to the irrational desire to do harm to yourself. Who cares if you ate some junk. Let it be. We all eat compulsively at times, stop yourself from believing that there is some "cure" or way to purge. There isn't. Accept yourself the way you are. Imperfect maybe, yet still beautiful.

[7heDubz]

There's the obsess then the impulse.

WHY is it you do this. What is it you FEAR will happen if you don't act on the urge.