WTF? Is he really worth it or is it all in my head?

aysan
I went out with one of my best guy friends for about a year; we've known each other since freshman year of high school and we had all those years to tell one another that we liked each other but it was when I decided to move overseas, that we finally got together; so it was a long distance relationship. We had some good memories, some great moments he even asked me to marry him, claiming I was what he was looking for his entire life; anywho I said yes and I thought I was gonna live my perfect happy ending. But in June he decided to break up with me with no explanations. so we cut contact for about 3 months ( worst 3 months of my life) and since he was my friend to begin with, I decided to get back into contact with him and everything seemed to pick up where we were when we were friends. And within that same month, we got on the subject of regrets and he said that he did regret his decision; since I was still very much in love with him; I rushed into it head first and agreed to get back together; granted I have been having some issues at that time (financial, health related and what nots) so I kept on pushing my flight back home back for good reasons of course. But mister couldn't handle it and broke up again with me again for the second time; claiming that I was a liar and that I was making up stories to keep him interested in me. So things got heated and I cut off contact for good; told him we couldn't even be friends since he was doubting my integrity (RIGHT?) and we left it at that: now I'm going back home for the first time since all of this madness happened and I'm sure to bump into him since he lives close to my best friend's place and I still very much love him as much as everything he did to me so what should I do ? Is third time the charm or is he just not worth it?
WTF? Is he really worth it or is it all in my head?
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