Can I have some advice for living with depression?

[Andridaca]

It fucking sucks. Every morning I wake, wishing for death so eternal rest may welcome me. I am angry quite often, and yesterday I cried for virtually no reason. I am so lazy that I literally don't brush my teeth, and my house is a total pig sty. What makes this worse is the debilitating stress of school (straight F's) and getting a job for a fucking multitude of reasons. Not to mention: I probably have BPD or some other personality disorder. I just fucking hate life and the only stupid fucking thing in the world keeping me from ending myself is my stupid fucking empathy for my parents.

[Anonymous]

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[Anonymous]

It doesn't get any better for me. The doctor just gives me pills that make me fat and lazy. I rather be crazy than be a fat ass with diabetes.

The thought of why I would not end it all is a pressing one. And it is not something I can be assuaged by some careless reassurance or by therapy.

[Andridaca]

You should meditate. Five minutes, two-to-three times a day, working up to ten-to-twenty minutes, two-to-three times a day.
It's funny that I recommend meditation when I am to lazy to commit to it lol.

[Guy13]

Go see psychiatrist psychologist or counselor

[Andridaca]

I can't ):

[Guy13]

Damn, sorry.