I used to be incredibly socially awkward.
I used to be downright too afraid to even talk to a girl.
Then came a time where I was 17 years old around Christmastime.
I’d just gotten in trouble with my parents and I’d realized I fcked up bad and I needed to turn my life around. I’d disgraced the family’s honor.
I felt ashamed. I knew I had to do better.
So after months of feeling depressed and just hiding in my room for hours, I decided I’d had it and I was going to try and turn my life around.
So I tried out the gym. I felt I’d hit rock bottom and had nothing to lose. I wanted to try a new way of living. So I showed up at the gym every day after school and met with a personal trainer. Then I started running, and going to the YMCA and my depression was gone.
But then covid happened during March and the school year ended.
So I started playing basketball outside for hours a day through the spring and summer. Just alone. In my driveway. Listening to music.
Then the fall came around and I started working 30 hour weeks while taking online classes for college.
Then by the time next summer came around I fell into depression again.
I’d gotten extremely bored of living the same life with no changes for several months straight.
I was alone. I was living at home. My job was a drag. I’d started to hate it. I hadn’t talked to kids my age in over 8 months.
So then I went crazy. I got scammed and lost thousands of dollars. But once I caught on, the fear of reprisal from my parents kept me paying them and hoping it would magically work before they found out.
And then I was off to college. Literally the week after they found out.
I was so excited to meet people my age again, and I discovered I no longer had the same issues of social awkwardness. I easily made several close friends.
And my views on women completely changed. I was no longer so obsessed over them. My own goals and future were all I mostly thought about.
I’m a completely different person today than I was 4 years ago.
