I used to be incredibly socially awkward.
I used to be downright too afraid to even talk to a girl.
Then came a time where I was 17 years old around Christmastime.
I’d just gotten in trouble with my parents and I’d realized I fcked up bad and I needed to turn my life around. I’d disgraced the family’s honor.
I felt ashamed. I knew I had to do better.
So after months of feeling depressed and just hiding in my room for hours, I decided I’d had it and I was going to try and turn my life around.
So I tried out the gym. I felt I’d hit rock bottom and had nothing to lose. I wanted to try a new way of living. So I showed up at the gym every day after school and met with a personal trainer. Then I started running, and going to the YMCA and my depression was gone.
But then covid happened during March and the school year ended.
So I started playing basketball outside for hours a day through the spring and summer. Just alone. In my driveway. Listening to music.
Then the fall came around and I started working 30 hour weeks while taking online classes for college.
Then by the time next summer came around I fell into depression again.
I’d gotten extremely bored of living the same life with no changes for several months straight.
I was alone. I was living at home. My job was a drag. I’d started to hate it. I hadn’t talked to kids my age in over 8 months.
So then I went crazy. I got scammed and lost thousands of dollars. But once I caught on, the fear of reprisal from my parents kept me paying them and hoping it would magically work before they found out.
And then I was off to college. Literally the week after they found out.
I was so excited to meet people my age again, and I discovered I no longer had the same issues of social awkwardness. I easily made several close friends.
And my views on women completely changed. I was no longer so obsessed over them. My own goals and future were all I mostly thought about.
I’m a completely different person today than I was 4 years ago.
It's natural to look back on your life and realize how much you've grown and changed over the years. Life is a journey, and we all go through different experiences that shape us into the people we are today.
It sounds like you've gone through a lot of ups and downs, but you've also worked hard to overcome challenges and make positive changes in your life. From struggling with social awkwardness to finding a love for exercise and fitness, to dealing with depression and financial struggles, you've shown resilience and a willingness to try new things.
It's also great to hear that you've made progress in your social and personal life, and that you've developed a healthier perspective on women and your own goals. These are important steps towards personal growth and well-being.
Remember, life is a journey, and there will always be ups and downs along the way. But by focusing on your personal growth and making positive changes, you can continue to move forward and create the life you want for yourself.