I feel like I don't belong to this time?

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Idc if they had poor water or diseases back then. We still do, just in a different way.

Today's way of living does not fit me at all, and it seems like it's me against the rest of the world. I grew up (and live in) a major city, and everything and everyone is so dirty. People smoke, drive too fast, they don't care about you or your feelings, they do everything they can to get in front in one way or the other and to make money. People go to night clubs to get drunk and f*** strangers. Everyone seem so unserious and like they don't care.

I don't know if if it's just my generation, this town, or this country. But my generation do seem like fools. (I'm 18). Even though I might have a lot of money in comparison to people in Iraq or Africa, I don't spend them on bullsh*t (or redbull) like most of my peers. New Iphone even though I already have 1,2,3,4 and every other HTC available? No problem? New PC every 3 months? No problem! Smoke 20 cigerattes a day because you're young and "free"? No problem!

I feel out of place and I don't seem to ever get on the same line with people on my age. They're so soaked up on money, girls, cars and every other non-serious business available.

Where I live, everything is so dirty. I feel dirty just by walking down the street. I walk down the stars filled with smoke from my neighbours, jumping over the bottle on the floor leaking beer. Then I go down the street, a fat dude in a suit looking ever so depressed with a smoke in his hand, slowly killing himself, hating his life, because he spends 8 hours a day in front of a computer, then drives home and watches TV. Further down the street, my eye catches a McDonald's. I won't even start on that one...

All my life I've been very good to other people. From I was born I have always been extremely kind and caring for other people. But I'm starting to feel ruined in some way, because of the media and m peers. It is like the world has made me cynical. Not tough. Not stronger. But like a robot. It seems to me that (young) people do not value the correct things in life. It's hard to explain.

I don't have a lot of money, but I know what to do with those that I have. If I had 1k $, I would go on a vacation. Or buy a new musical instrument. Anything but an Iphone, Ipad or some very expensive clothes. No one seems to share my opinions, feelings or ideas.

The vulgarity of everyday life is another that's so thing so frustrating for me. The evil and corrupted in the media. Turn on MTV, have a black dude (no offense) smack some girl's butt with a bass in the background; that's today's music and the culture young people grow up with. Why don't anybody stop this sex show?

On the 22th July, as I walked down the dirty streets my eyes caught the newspapers with photos from Utøya and young people's bodies floating in the water. I felt like something broke inside of me, getting all this thrown in my face. I didn't read newspapers for a very long time afterward. Something is def. wrong.
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Too much TV and PC as a child, and no family gatherings around the table for dinner. I feel soulless
I feel like I don't belong to this time?
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