What can I do about my uncontrollable feelings?

[jankelfrodel]

I haven`t been on here as much as I thought I would.. Things have been.. Turbulent.. Lonely.. And meager.. I am getting my life back together, after losing my entire social network, to crime, drugs, and Death.. I lost everything, and have nothing, but I`m on my way back up, slowly, but I think I`m on my way.. My problem is, I am no one now, a social reject, unemployed, with no network, but I don`t really care.. All I can think of is this incredible girl.. The sweetest creature I have ever laid my eyes upon, and a Sparkling personality, that I feel combined puts the sun and stars to shame.. I have NO words to describe the feelings I have for her, the admiration, love, and intense longing that never goes away, the burning vacuume of the lack of her in my arms.. I don`t know her, she works at a grocerystore nearby.. I barely know her name, Aleksandra.. But it`s the only name on my mind, and she is everything I can think about.. I think maybe she quit, because I have been by regularly( spelling?) but she's never there, and I`m going crazy :( Whenever I see her, talk to her for like a few minutes, I`m in a great mood the rest of the day, she just makes me happy just beeing around, and all I know is that the only thing I care about is making her laugh, and the hope that I may one day hold her in my arms, if only for a few Seconds :/ I HAVE to tell her how I feel, I don`t care if she has someone (she definitely does, she has to, she is Incredible) all I want is to get this of my chest and give her a hug, so I can go on with my life.. I sound pessimistic I know, but I`m way too old for her and have noe life.. But how can I get any Peace of mind when I can`t find her and tell her how I feel? It`s been weeks now, and I feel like I'm on fire, I`m freezing, being ripped to shreds from inside? :( I mean I don`t want to seem like some kind of stalker or something either, so I don`t know what to do.. Why do I feel so strongly for someone I`ve barely spoken to? Why must I find such beauty in the midst of my misery? I`m in the lowest position, physically, mentally, and socially.. And NOW I meet the most Incredible girl ever!? Why must I take this so seriously!? Why can`t I just NOT CARE :( It burns, and I`m scared..

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Well.. It`s been a couple of weeks since I asked her out now. She said no :/ But at least I got that checked off the list, like: Get nervous and goofy,check. Get denial, check. Get over it.. No, nooo, not one bit.. She said she would like to, but have no time, and I know she has three jobs in addition to her studies so.. I should just get over it. I still think about her every day. I may seem desperate or pathetic, but I`m not, she`s really a very special girl. I just need emotional control

[yopyopyop]

From one addiction to another ?

In a way, it's a good thing she's not around anymore, because considering how you talk about her, you would have freaked her out.

Get better physically and mentally first. Then you'll see this episode like it is : an obsessive episode of a mind that needs to calm down and stop looking for salvation anywhere else than in himself.

Good luck !

[jankelfrodel]

"in a way, it's a good thing she's not around anymore, because considering how you talk about her, you would have freaked her out" I know.. I can never tell a girl how I feel, because I feel too strongly when I first get to really liking someone :/ I am just starting everything over these days, and now everything is happening real fast, but regarding obsessiveness, that`s not the case, besides, she allready saved me in a way.. Just talking to her for like 5 minutes cheered me up enough get help

[bunny_luv]

if you see her again maybe ask her out for coffee. take your time in getting to know her. starting as friends is always a good idea when meeting someone new. it sounds like you've been through a lot too and it will take time for you to find the right path for you in life. take care and take it one day at a time.

[jankelfrodel]

They way I look (not like the picture anymore) and the way everything in my life is right now, I have noooo chance with her.. But I would like to be friends with her, anyone would, she just brightens up everyones day :) I`m just thinking maybe it would be easier just trying to forget her, but that`s kinda the problem hehe :p (and I just noticed I`ve been asking nearly the exact same question, only 4 years apart..) I appreciate your advice, and I`m trying to take one day at a a time.. :)

[bunny_luv]

awww you're so welcome and I think you're taking the right approach in getting to know someone new by starting as friends rather than automatically pushing for a relationship. I hope you have the courage to just talk to her and hopefully you two will make new friends. who doesn't love a cup of coffee in a cool funky coffee house :o) take care and I sure hope all goes well for you.

[yaddayaddayadda02]

Wow. That's a bit much

[jankelfrodel]

I know trust me..You can`timagine what it`s like, being an ex-marine, "all hard and bad to the bone".. yeah, well, not so much when it comes to feelings.. Way too strong feelings.. :/ But I know, bit much, but that`s how I feel..