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Can any South Asian relate to my marriage situation?

I can't help but think that I have constantly been on a path of failure. It's hard to judge, but I have encountered hardships that could have easily been avoided with basic support - which I lacked. This was during my university days where I went from having a bright future, to delays and struggles due to a medical situation, and then unforgiving university policies that delayed my graduation.

Next, there was a time when I was a hot commodity in the dating market. However, I ended up getting married in an arranged marriage. I don't know where I put my younger year, I was frustrated by the dating app choices, met no one compatible in real life of my background, and my parents put a lot of pressure on me - along with the insecurity that I was definitely getting too old (mid 30s).

My wife is great in many ways. She is level headed, mature, intelligent, fair, reasonable, funny... however both her and I also have some key differences. One of them for being I was always very specific on looks. It could be a famous actress with an attractive face, but she may not be my type. Similarly, although there is nothing wrong with her, my wife wasn't my type. To make it more complicated, her extremely busy lifestyle (CEO of a start up) means her work-life balance is horrible as she has to travel a lot for work, and always has things on her plate.

Furthermore, due to a medical issue, we only had sex the first year of marriage, and now for the last 2 years, she has had to take precautions.

On one end, she is a great person to have on my team, on the other... I always have doubts if we are both wasting our time. The key attraction is missing although I do love her and care for her as a person and believe she deserves the best. I sometimes feel tempted to check out other women who do fit my definition of eye catching, but I often find that none of them have qualities like my wife that I now think I cannot live without.

Can any South Asian relate to my marriage situation?
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