I knew that he was a new teacher but throughout the last year I didn't really pay attention to him because I just didn't care. But towards the end of the school year I noticed him staring at me when we met in the hallway, repeatedly, even though we didn't know each other yet.
Then my chemistry teacher at that time quit working for a while to have her baby and guess who filled in for her for the last month of school: Right, he showed up.
Since I sit in the front row I clearly noticed that he was nervous around me -he even stuttered and stuff- , he literally stared at me when we had to solve problems on our own, he stood at the window next to my seat, he looked at me for a long time when he thought I didn't notice and quickly looked away when I turned my head, he rarely really looked me in the eye but seemed to hear everything I said. Then in the hallway I noticed him standing there and looking at me, but when I walked by and looked at him to say hello he avoided eye contact again. It was a bit weird, I think he's shy. And at the same time I just somehow feel tenderness coming from him in the way he talks and moves when I'm around (he can act like a real ass to get some respect from the class). That makes me want to hug him and that sounds so cheesy.
This year we were supposed to get another chemistry teacher in the beginning, but somehow it got so that he became our teacher instead (and I must admit that I think he might me have done something for that).
He still doesn't look me straight in the eyes often, but it has gotten better and more natural. I think he notices basically everything I do and say during his lessons because he responds in a way. And he often makes eye contact with the girl sitting next to me, which he never paid attention to before and she's just a girl that no one really pays much attention to (sorry!).
Today we had a sports festival with our school and again I noticed him looking at me. Often for christ's sake. I do like him, I think he's nice and I'd like to be friends with him, but it seems like he doesn't want to talk to me if he never makes eye contact! If he weren't my teacher there might be something going on, but like this it is impossible, so we might as well be friendly with each other.
I just find him physically so so attractive, I seriously want to pull him towards me and mess around with him when he stands near to me. That has never happened to me before.
What might he be thinking? Why does he never look at me? He knows better than me that there will never be something between us even if we want to! Maybe I'm overthinking this?
I'm turning 18 in a month by the way. :)
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Your Chemistry teacher wants you to study hard, pay attention in class, and prepare for a bright future. That is ALL he should want from you, and probably all he does want from you.. He is in a position of power. You are his pupil. It's normal to have a crush on your teacher, but it's not normal for him to encourage it, whether you're turning 18 or not.
He could just find it easy to make eye contact with your row, or find that you have an encouraging facial expression when he feels like he's losing the class's attention.
If you are thinking, "So what! I'll be 18. I'll do what I want," know that you could cost him his job if you push it. It wouldn't be the first time a teacher and student had an inappropriate relationship, but don't go looking to make it happen! It's inappropriate for a reason. STOP STOP STOP. If he makes any kind of advance, you need to be clear that it is NOT appropriate and that he cannot do it again. Trust me, you don't want to get in that kind of mess.
I definitely won't do something as stupid as that, I'd just prefer not being ignored by him. There being a little bit of chemistry (ha, pun!) between us shouldn't be getting in the way of us talking to each other.
If he's my teacher and he knows it's taboo, why does he still behave this way? Shouldn't he be totally normal towards me too?
Maybe it's because he's a young teacher and he hasn't had much experience with this yet, who knows.
Don't worry, nothing inappropriate will happen :)
Good girl. He shouldn't be acting that way, and it is probably because he is young and inexperienced. Glad to hear you won't be the one helping him learn that lesson the hard way! As for the chemistry, it's okay to joke and get along, just keep it G rated.