I'm 20 and I've never been to a club in my life before. Tomorrow there's a heavy metal club opening in my city. All my friends dress in a punk type way and I wear a lot of pink and they told me to wear my pinkest outfit "so I look like Barbie". I've never been to a club as I said because it doesn't seem like my thing, I really want to go tomorrow though because of the music
Even though I'm with my friends I'm very nervous for some reason. Also because I know there will probably be guys I would actually date, like those guys who look like rockstars if you know
I know I could never get with anyone though because I'm not content with what my body looks like at all even though I present otherwise. I know how men act around me and I know I look good but I'm 100% flat and I wear bras that make it look like I look normal. I promised myself to not get into anything with a man until I get implants (yeah you can laugh at me) it sounds ridiculous but it's true. I also make money off my looks but on the inside I'm very insecure and I know it will make me feel sad how there will very likely be men hitting on me I'd actually want to be with and then I have to reject them
Any advice? I know this post sounds very pathetic so sorry
