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3 mo

Should I change my whole personality and identity just to be loved?

I have worked hard to build to be this character, it worked in a lot of places, getting marks, getting jobs, making my parents proud, getting parents love.
I cheaped out on body, outdoor life in many ways. The place it never worked when it came to getting love.
I never trusted the world cause whenever I asked for helped it just abandoned me.
I build qualities like understanding girls, feeling, consoling, holding up there visions.
Putting them on my top priority but in return I got cheated, always the counted on, but never the one who is a choice for love.
When I approached someone I was put in to guilt for having feelings towards a friend.
It's been hard to make any changes to my life. In between all this I lost all interest in hobbies, lost all my skills, lost myself, and it feels I am just waiting for love to come to me in place of work for it.
But working for it didn't worked.
So I don't know what to do.
Now I am lossing my body functionality cause I was born healthy but now getting weaker by the days.
I wish I have a better body to train it. To fix it with less effort. Or without drugs.
So that I can be more.
Should I change my whole personality and identity just to be loved?
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