Letter to the Guy I Love

[justagirl5]

I love you.

We're not together, but I love you. I love your smile. I love the way your arms feel as you pull me close to your chest. I love that you're quiet and shy. I love how you hold the door for me. I love how you listen when I talk. I love the way you stumble over your words when you get nervous. I love how you have big dreams. I love that we can talk about anything (except how I feel about you, of course).

And crazy as it seems, I love your flaws. I love that you're stubborn (and I love how we argue over stupid things because of that). I love that you room is always a mess. I love the way you sometimes don't think things through.

But love means letting go. Love means letting you go and live the life you've dreamed of, even if it means that we're apart. Love means possibly watching you love someone else and putting on a smile anyway.

I hope we'll keep in touch, because I don't want to lose you. But if I do, please know that I love you (although I never told you so). I'll always support you, and I'll always be there if you need anything -- even if we're thousands of miles away.

And maybe -- someday -- we'll find each other again. Maybe we're meant to be. Maybe you're the right person at the wrong time.

Or maybe I'm just crazy.

[Anonymous]

When I was 18 I was crazy in love with a guy. My first love. He was in love with his ex. It killed me. I hated holding it in about how much I loved him. But I couldnt do it because I knew he didn't love me back. Still it totally changed how i acted around him and maybe even prevented him from falling in love with me. He also could've been more sensitive to my feelings if he had known how I felt.

I just wanted to share this with you so you can decide if that helps youake an decisions about what to do, how to handle your friendship. In my opinion its best to gain a little distance.

[justagirl5]

I have created distance:( I haven't talked to him in a month. I miss him to death, and I'm worried about him because of what other friends are saying, but I think it's helping me sorta get over him in a way.

[Opinion Owner]

That's good to hear. Now you just need to find things you enjoy, work on fullfilling your goals, and let it get easy over time. Meet some new people etc.

[justagirl5]

Thanks:) Some nights like tonight I do still cry but I think I am slowly healing. I just hope we can sorts be friends again even if we can't be as close as we were the first time. I'll always love him but I'm hoping it'll turn back into a friendship love if I limit talking to him. But I just know that as soon as we run into each other again that he's gonna hug me and I'm gonna be the happiest girl in the world until it's time today goodbye again

[WombRaider]

I think you should either write the message out and have it as a keepsake, or write it out anonymously and somehow get it in his hands.

You clearly love him and, because I can relate to this on so many levels, you'll probably hold this love on for as long as you live.

It doesn't even matter whether he feels the same way or not, just get that letter to him (anonymously) and it'll make you feel happy.

[justagirl5]

so I'll never stop having these feelings? Even if I find someone else when I feel ready (which will be a while)? 😫 I hate feelings

[WombRaider]

Of course you'll meet other great guys, but from experience, I've always had this one girl in the back of my mind :(

Just take your time... there's nothing to hate.

[Echelon333]

Lol chill girl, you will eventually stop having those feelings, as time passes by you will. I was in the same place as you're right now and I thought the same things you do now dw.. But I fell out of love with her and fell in even more with my (current) girlfriend.. And whenever I read/heard "time heals everything"/ " Time heals all wounds" I was like noot this sh*t again sthaap! But after some time I realised it was true and it worked for me. If you want to forget him don't be close to him, don't talk to him, don't do anything remotely connected to him, but if you want to feel this way and it's totally okay for you, you should keep in touch with him as you said.. It all comes down to what do you want, god dammit woman what do you want? (huehue get it? ok i will let myself out :/ )

[BeautifulMind59]

Love your guts. For 18 you're doing great. On the right path.

[Anonymous]

I love how you respond to your emotions. For an 18 year old, you're pretty wise.
Anyway, you can always fight for him. Maybe there is one small chance that you can make an impact on the situation. I read in the comments that he hugs you. If you are that close, even for someone as conservative as me, I could say that the chance is slightly bigger than a small one.

Not that I truly trust or believe in Hollywood movies, at least not anymore, but I think this movie might just give you an idea or at least a new perspective on life. It's actually just really funny and entertaining to watch, and most importantly it is definitely very original, not just some corny cliche. It may also take the edge off your sadness.
It's called "The Ugly Truth" and it stars Katherine Heigle and Gerard Butler. If you do see it let me how it was.

[justagirl5]

Yeah, it's not gonna work because after I thought he was interested in another girl I find out from friends last week that he's online dating a guy... I'm upset that we won't be together but even more upset that he lied and said he wasn't gay AND flirted with me. He's moving across the country for this guy and we don't talk much anymore:( He rarely talks to anyone anymore except this guy... but that's life I guess. I just hope he doesn't get hurt cause this guy sounds like a player.

Thanks for the movie suggestion:)

[Opinion Owner]

I'm sorry about him turning out gay. That was unpredicted.
You're welcome. Have you seen the movie yet?

[justagirl5]

I don't know if he's actually gay or just confused. He was upset he'd never dated before and I think this guy just came along stalking on his social media looking for someone new and my friend just never experienced that and went with it. Doesn't explain why he flirted with me for 3 freaking months but it's whatever

I haven't seen the movie:( I've been backed up with school

[Lioness]

Well I think you have nothing to lose... sometimes guys get in rebound relationships in a state of temporary confusion and/or to overcome their pain. This doesn't mean he is over you or would reject this letter from you. If you send it at least you will have said what you needed to and ball will be in his court. I really believe you will feel better and find some closure one way or another.

[StewieRH]

Aww this is really sweet :) Why don't you tell him? I used to write letters to my boyfriend but never send them out of embarrassment but last time I actually sent one and he loved it.

[justagirl5]

Because we're not dating! And I think he likes someone else and I'd hate to end our friendship and make everything awkward over feelings especially since we won't be seeing each other much anymore 😊

[danialhaz]

I think you should tell to him before it too late, i ruined my love life during high school just because i was late *feeling regret*. Just go for it!!! Felling awkward is the best part being in love :)

[justagirl5]

@danialhaz I know for sure he doesn't feel the same. And I think he'll get too weirded out if I say I love him so I'll just leave it in my head or on paper for now.

[sawno]

I loved that, very relatable. Your love is obviously genuine, caring more about his happyness then your own. It all makes it very beautifull. I bet he would have a great girl if he ends up with you.

[sawno]

P. s. He deserves to know how much you love him, he might even have loved you back the entire time while being equally shy to admit it.

[justagirl5]

Thanks! He doesn't love me back though. I see what he posts on Instagram about having a crush and he said she's his BFF on Snapchat. I don't use that so obviously... not me. 😥 Don't know who she is, but I know it's not me and if he's anything like me (which he is) he'd get really weirded out if I said I loved him and probably distance himself from me. That's what I do when a guy I'm not interested in is interested in me. So I think it's best to leave the situation alone.

[DarkHumorRUs]

Tell him. Girls get a lot better reactions than guys when they confess...

[Anonymous]

I think you should take the risk and tell him how you feel. You only live once! And I bet he loves you back!😉😉

[doctorwhofan23]

If a girl felt this way about me I would want to know.

[Byakuyarko]

You are crazy. Why would you put something as personal as this on GaG?

[DarkHumorRUs]

Can you track down OP in real life?
Didn't think so.
Your argument is invalid.

[Byakuyarko]

@DarkHumorRUs: I don't need to track OP down in real life to find the post too personal. There's a fine line between "I want to share my thoughts on an online forum" and "I need to talk to my friends about how I truly feel."

[BeautifulMind59]

What's OP please?

[DarkHumorRUs]

@BeautifulMind59 original poster

[BeautifulMind59]

@DarkHumorRUs Thanks!

[doodlecake]

So much of this describes me. My room is always a mess...
This was very nice. :-(

[lonerider]

"(although I never told you so)"
- Typical woman.

[ColinHarvey]

AWWWWW SHIT. Girl's got game.

[CancerianMan81]

I wouldn't say your crazy

[CancerianMan81]

I would say your commendable

[SunsetRose]

Beautiful.

[mikemx55]

The begining reminded me of this movie quote:
"I love her smile. I love her hair. I love her knees. I love how she licks her lips before she talks. I love her heart-shaped birthmark on her neck. I love it when she sleeps."

[mikemx55]

"It's official. I'm in love with Summer."

[PiscesEyes]

@mikemx55 aww great movie!

[mikemx55]

@PiscesEyes https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DOrfYQPZF6k

[mikemx55]

@PiscesEyes How infatuation and hate can change the perspective we look at someone

[Anonymous]

No one cares

[Lioness]

Correction, YOU don't care. Why bother even responding if you are so rude and heartless.