I genuinely have only had people saying oh I want to be with this person and then they get with them, continue to go out, start having drama, come to me and complain about it and how they never really liked each other and how they don't know why they are like this.
These people also who DO stay together, will never stop talking about each others relationship, I am happy to hear about it but I get kind of jealous, UNTIL I hear from a friend where they say they love the partner but they are controlling, like telling them what clothes to wear, distancing them from their friends etc.
Legit, one of my mates, he has a girlfriend but since he got one he seems more upset and she keeps him away from us saying that the time that he used to spend with his friends should be spent on her, she also tells him what clothes suit him and which ones to buy.
I mean, I can't say how much I wanted a relationship for so long, but recently for about a year I think, I have just been seeing too much bad stuff linked with relationships that I feel like it is just TOO soon to have a relationship, start looking when I am older, when people are looking for permanent partners....
I don't mean to say no-one at my age wants a permanent relationship at the moment, I just mean to say that a lot of them don't seem to be finding enjoyment in it because they are sacrificing their time with their friends, they are sacrificing their personal time to themselves and they don't get much rest because they are also working on studies.
I mean, when I first started getting interested in relationships, I thought it would be wonderful to have one but now I am being surrounded by too many people with bad stuff happening, stressing about not getting time to themselves, not being able to balance their time for everything etc. which has seriously made it difficult for me to want a relationship.
But when I say this, loads of my friends say that I am just giving up, I'm not.
I do want a relationship one day and I am not giving up, I just think at this time relationships are causing too much stress which means I am not ready for one.
Thank you for reading this, I know it is short and I also know a number of you will think it was pointless but I needed to get it off my chest and vent it somewhere so thank you for being my escape route I guess? <3 :)