Where Do I Begin...

[Anonymous]

I don't know how to start this. I only know what I want to say, but I don't want my words and thoughts to be all over the place. Anything I say here, I will probably never say to you and that's just fine with me. As long as I get these thoughts out of my mind, that's all that matters.

I still think about you. Not as often as I used to, but still, you cross my mind frequently. I hardly feel anything when you cross my mind now, other than curiosity, disappointment, and slight resentment. Yeah, I may carry that resentment around with me forever, but just know that I'm not overwhelmed with anger or sadness anymore.

I hate the way you've treated me for the past couple years and even more, I hate that I let you treat me like that. Like I don't matter. Like my feelings don't matter. I let down my walls with you. I told you things and expressed feelings to you that I haven't expressed to most people. You were the first person in a long time, if not ever, that I actually saw myself being in a relationship with. Would it have worked out? In hindsight, most likely not. But believe me, I really hoped that it would.
I wanted you for so long and I thought you wanted me, too. Until I realized that you didn't want just me. Or even me at all. But even when you showed me how little I meant to you, I still wanted you. Even when you proved to me that you wanted other girls, I still wanted you. And I hoped you still wanted me, too. I wanted you to mean certain things that you said to me, but you didn't. And deep down, I think I knew that. How idiotic of me, right?

So, what it comes down to is this: You want a specific kind of girl and I don't fit the bill. I just can't give you what you're looking for and that's all right.
You deserve someone better suited for you and I deserve someone better suited for me. I hope someday, if you ever get over this idea that you can't be just friends with me because of our little history, that we can be friends. Because despite how you've treated me all this time, I still care about you and I believe we are/would be more compatible as friends. Nothing more.

I'm upset that things between us never progressed, but I still want you to find happiness, even if I can't give it to you. I want you to succeed and have good fortune and all that good shit. For real.

Well, I guess that's it.
~Goodbye, Stranger

[Romi93]

Heartbreak is a bitch. Unrequited love even worth.
Felt everything you said. You write really well.
Going through kinda the same thing
Date a guy for 9 months, we broke it off 2 month ago.
He was a good guy but very confusing, he moved really fast in our relationship: we talked every day from the start, told me he loved me after a month, saw each other 5 times a week , slept together every weekend, went on dates, asked me to go bowling with him and his best friend, told his friends about me, etc. We acted as if we were a couple but when I brought the subject of actually becoming a couple he told me he wanted to get to know me more, wasn't ready yet, was working on himself, had gotten out of a bad relationship 6 months prior, etc.
After splitting I realized that most probably I was his rebound, he used to talked about her, at the beginning he told me a lot about her and their relationship, how toxic she was, etc. He brought her up a couple of times later on, how his mom would mention her or compared me to her when I asked to be exclusive or in a relationship (If that's not a red flag what is it?)
Reasons for why it ended I wanted a relationship he did not. He wanted me but did not want exclusivity and the emotional tie that would actually come from the relationship. I fell in love with him, official relationship or not and to be told that it wasn't the same feeling to be dating that to have a tittle hurt me.
We decided to end things in good terms, he telling me that this was extremely hard and that he loved me very much but he has not contacted me ever since.
I have learned that actions speak way louder than words. They have to show they care not only with words or empty promises.
I wish him the best as well but it's best to move on.

[Bananaman177]

Supertramp is a great band.

Breakfast in America is one of the best albums ever made.

Sorry you're crazy or whatever.

https://www.youtube.com/embed/-_JA0fGMICc

[Curmudgeon]

It WAS one of the best albums made. But she is not crazy, just hurt.

[Curmudgeon]

"Goodbye Stranger"? I feel like an even older song than that now:

https://www.youtube.com/embed/J5BRuWS9iAk

[Dinosaursandanime65]

Good story. I didn't read all of it but it's still interesting.

[genericname85]

don't be friends with someone you love romantically. that's self-torture.

[Matthew2222]

Just Another Nervous Wreck