My friend kissed me, but I'm engaged?

Anonymous
I hope members of this site will not pass judgement, but lend honest advice. Much appreciated.

I'm going to try and make this short and simple. Backstory.. I'm engaged and have been with my fiancé for 4 years, and we were best friends for 2 years before we actually got together. I love him, he's the one. I don't want to be with anyone else.

We are both friends with a guy named Adam. Adam and I are closer due to how regularly I see him at work events and we both get along great. I always knew he liked me, he's told me he liked me and I have said that there's no way it'll happen because I love my fiancé.

I realized over time that I developed a crush on Adam. Although, this still didn't mean I wanted anything and also have no desire to ruin what I have. We've gotten too flirty and talked about it. He's persistent sometimes with the flirting, but it's obvious he tries not to. We have talked about whats going on and I've made it clear I have no intentions of cheating on my fiancé or being with another guy. He says he respects us both and doesn't want to fuck up anything either.

Last week the three of us were out and have some drinks. Came back to my house a little too tipsy and my fiancé wasn't home. We were being very flirty.. I'm already a flirty person because I love the attention but the drinking didn't help (of course). We were talking and next thing I know he gives me a very quick kiss on the lips. I didn't even realize what happened until t was completely over and I asked him why he had to do that. He said he was sorry and couldn't help it. At the time I didn't realize the seriousness of it until the morning. He apologized and said he feels like an idiot.

I feel so guilty and have not told my fiancé. I don't want to cause drama between the friendships because Adam is a very close friend to me. But it's also not worth losing the love of my life.

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My friend kissed me, but I'm engaged?
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