Ever since quite a young age, I have generally had a slight attraction towards girls. When I was 16, I 'fooled around' with 2 guys I went to school with, but I wasn't turned on, nor did I enjoy it that much. When I was 19, I got my first girlfriend. We had fun at first, but we split up within a few months because we had a couple of problems and I wasn't sure if a girl-girl relationship was right for me personally. I've never gone all the way with a guy either (penetration) which makes me think if I was that keen on guys, I would have got that part over with by now. There was this girl at work I really fancied when I was 21 and I think she may have fancied me back. Unfortunately, I lost my job a week after we had this really deep conversation at a party and I have barely heard from her since. I think about her a lot and what could have been, had I not lost my job. On the odd occasion, I do see a guy where I think 'he's nice-looking.' But it doesn't happen too often and it's always hippie guys with long hair I tend to look twice at. It didn't occur to me until earlier that maybe every once in a while the reason I find hippie-ish guys with long hair good-looking is because they remind me of a girl in some way? Not trying to be rude to guys who do have long hair, I'm just talking about 'resemblances.' The real question is, am I a lesbian, or am I bisexual? I don't really have any guy-friends and I tend to fantasise about women more. I did have acouple of dates with this guy in the last year to test the waters a bit and I have to be honest, something didn't feel right. Although, that could have been because he just wasn't my type of guy if I was to date one? The thing is, I'm not sure I can picture myself in a long-term relationship with another woman. I don't know if my family/friends would accept it either and is that maybe why sometimes I don't accept myself?
Am I a Lesbian?
