Me and a girl I work with were pretty good friends until I caught feelings for her. After that it slowly spiraled down hill because I constantly made sure she was okay with the fact I liked her. One night at a party we were both pretty drunk and had an emotional talk between us after that I told her that if I brought up this stuff again to cut me out of her life. A couple days later she was going out with friends I called her to make sure it was alright if I came since we just had that big emotional discussion a few days prior she said I could come. When we went out that night it just felt like she didn't want me there so me being a dumb drunk started bringing it up again she got super mad and said she was done. A lot of drinks later we end up back at our friends place me, her, and her friend had an argument and I stormed out. I later came back to look for my cell phone and asked if she was still there so I could apologize for being so petty, she wasn't. I sent her a couple texts tried to call her a couple times no answer she blocks my number and Facebook I realized she was really done this time. A couple days later she sends me this number for a counselor and says to call them and tell them her name. I'm wondering if she still cares about my well being enough to think I need help she did mention before that she thought it would be good for me a few weeks before that night happened. Do any of you think it would eventually be okay to try to contact her again once I give her space for long enough and show her I can change we used to be such good friends and she even told me that night that she misses how it used to be between us. We technically are neighbors but I don't think I should be knocking on her door anytime soon I could also try to send her an email through her work email eventually. I just don't want to lose one of the greatest friends I ever made just because I caught feelings for her by accident and let jealousy ruin our relationship from one night of BS
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I only want to be her friend now I have no desire for a relationship with her I never even wanted to catch feelings
