In the last two weeks I feel like I've been struggling more than ever before.
- My boyfriend of 1.5 years broke up with me abruptly, when we were doing well. He didn't stop telling me he loved me, he acted like everything was normal, and then he told me that it's nothing to do with me but he wants to put everything into his degree and focus on himself without being with me
- Two of my closest friends told me less than a week after I got dumped that I hurt them a lot during my relationship not organising for them to meet my ex boyfriend more. Telling me they never cared about what I was gelling them because they felt betrayed and that they couldn't find the time to tell me so they waited more than 6 months.
- Found out an extended family member, who I met a few times when I was younger, has been put in jail recently for 7 counts of child molestation that was committed 40 years ago. I discovered the horrific account on a daily telegraph article.
- I failed an assignment at university
- My aunt trying to guilt trip me and force me into a difficult position as my mother and her aren't on speaking terms
- I got assaulted for the 4th time at work ( i work in aged care- it's not intentional assault as it's by people with dementia but you rarely get offered support by management)
- I've been so anxious and down. I struggle eating with throwing up, have no appetite and either oversleep or can't sleep more than a few hours.
I have been trying to help myself but i just feel like I've hit dead ends. I've been trying to spend time with family, go other to my friends houses, go for drives to the beach, watch movies, read, paint and do yoga classes. None of these seem to be helping me feel like more than a shell of myself.
I've tried to seek professional support but each therapy session is $100 Australian dollars. As a university student on minimal income that's very expensive. The waiting list for free services is 4 months long
