Am I crazy for being faithful to my husband?

I come from a blue line family filled with DEA, FBI and so forth. However I’m currently married to a man who stays in investigations and mostly spy intelligence operations. It’s so lonely 😞 I have to lie about my life and basically spend so much time alone. For the last years it wasn’t like this. He signed another contract just in 2020 that would send him into another different field. the contract in 2020 sent him elsewhere overseas. This is the roughest patch of our marriage EVER! the last time he went to the FBI field office in Georgia he told me “ I just got another job and I may be gone for a while”. I have support from the family and everyone. I sat in the lobby at the FBI office in Georgia but I never thought it would be this painful. People on the outside don’t understand what I’m going through but I’m moving once more. my life is filled with moving to different places. I just wannna cry because I did all of this for us because he’s behind that badge. people come check on me but I just cry cry cry. FBI agents come by at times and even some officers to do spot checks on the place. Hearing from him doesn’t lift the weight off missing him 😞

I just needed to let this out.

Am I crazy for being faithful to my husband?
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