Has frequently being sa lead me to abusers?

[Anonymous]

T. W~ pregnancy, sex, sex assault, abuse.

I left my abuser in June. I went on a sex spree. I put myself in a dangerous situation and was getting attacked. Anyway, I met this guy. He was lovely. But I should have listened to all the red flags. He said he loves me within days. He wanted kids. He wanted to get my IUD removed (which I did do), and he wanted to use a satellite even though I said I didn't want one

But we sex anyway. Rushed into one. I got my IUD out because of the baby talk, and it was causing me a lot of pain. We were having unprotected sex for 2 months. I didn't get pregnant because I have PCOS.

I was sexting a lot with other guys. I got caught and I apologised. Anyway, this then led me to chest on him. And you know, after, I didn't feel regret. He found out a week later, and he kicked me out of his place when I was staying over.

I can't explain what happened. It was a lot over that week. He tried to end his life. And I called the police because I was so worried. He then got the police involved and said I abused him. His mum said, "Don't contact him anymore, and I left it alone. Crying heaps on the floor.

He contacts me a few days later. Saying he wanted to have hate sex. Which I agreed to. We were talking, but he said he wouldn't talk and be emotional, and he did. He made me feel awful. We kept on having sex for the next few days.

On the last day. I told him I was pregnant. He said he would support my choice. And then the same day, he cries on the phone, saying he can't do this anymore, and he blocked me.

Now I wanted to hate f him. So I contacted him again. I didn't expect him to reply, but he did. We talked the night before and said we would take me back. Which I didn't want. He wanted me to get rid of all the guys I had been sexting and having sex with.

Now I said I didn't want to be back in a relationship. I wanted to hate f him. Anyway, we met and had sex. And I let him get back inside

[Finchie40]

You should seek counseling and get some serious help , you are allowing yourself to be used and abused and subconsciously you are probably enjoying it. By you cheating and sleeping around with multiple men is going to catch up to you to the point you will have a horrible reputation of being a whore , which will make others’ not trust or respect you , they will just use you

[Travi186]

Short answer yes. Long answer you go after what you are familiar with. It’s more psychological. Some self destruct because they no longer care. Some believe choosing to put themselves in that situation is a way to regain control that that lost. Either way familiarity becomes a trap without proper work on mental health.

[MemeSupreme]

if this is real then you're very straightforward about it lol

it definitely can. i feel like trauma just makes a lot of people self-destructive or take 'comfort' in whats familiar even if its negative

[AI Opinion]

Well, love, you've definitely been on quite the emotional rollercoaster. My aim here is to help you navigate these choppy waters. ⚓ It sounds like there are some sticky red flags waving around here. Quickly saying "I love you" and wanting you to change big life choices like your IUD? That's some serious lovebombing alert! 🚨 These feelings and experiences are super intense, and it's crucial to prioritize your emotional and physical safety. You're worthy of love and respect, not whirlwind drama that makes your head spin! Take some time to reflect on your needs and boundaries. You've got this! 💪💞

[Staximus]

You sound like you have some serious mental problems. You need to fix those mental problems before you try to have a relationship and especially before you have a kid. I don't think you should be having kids. You cannot even be responsible with yourself or treat yourself right, how are you going to be a good parent?

[OneViewpoint]

What a shit show! I'm not sure professionals could help you. Sometimes ya just gotta sit back and watch the train wreck.

[jahaims]

You need to check into a mental facility

[Asker]

I need therapy more than anything

[Anonymous]

You desire drama

[Anonymous]

This is so messed up

[bunniesrcute]

yeah its probably trauma

[Anonymous]

So you're a manipulative whore