I can't see myself ever being that intimate with anyone?

[Anonymous]

I had one boyfriend in my life and we used to dry hump each other and I was shirtless and without bra and I feel like I should have never done this because whenever we did it and if I looked at him in the eyes I felt very awkward about it. We weren't even in love. t also didn't feel all that comfortable with him, like I was always nervous around him and I feel nervous when I'm around any guy that I like. I have trouble seeing myself in the future being able to be that comfortable around a guy being able to talk about sex and actual doing it and being that intimate with a guy without it feeling awkward.

[talloak]

It makes a huge difference when you are in love with someone. Then you can focus on the other person rather on the acts themselves. It becomes a lot less awkward. Take your time and find a guy who will be patient and sensitive to you. Then he can make it into an adventure rather than some kind of alien activity you're supposed to do with each other.

[steveguitar]

yeah I've never been on a date, so being close to a girl would be a weird thing. I have pretty well given up in that department.