Is it normal to miss a guy who want to murder people and stalks you?

[catarecute]

i dont think this is normal. why is life so sad. why couldnt me and this guy get married have kids and die together and live forever in heaven with god. why did he have to reject me stalk me and maybe become a murderer. i wish thing were different. i am so sad and miss him.

[strateguy632]

i see your story as natural , and the body mind partnership, so yes it is natural to have feelings and miss even a bad person if you felt emotional connection. also your mind warns you to avoid the bad person and keep away. so you can miss and hope but better to move ahead and find a new lover.

[catarecute]

its better i know but i can't i have giving up trying months ago. i was telling myself yesterday that i would move on but i know that i can't.

[BoopBoopBeep]

You need serious psychological help. Please get it.

[catarecute]

you need to f off please do it

[BoopBoopBeep]

Don't get defensive. I don't mean it as a slam. You feel like you aren't good enough to deserve more than a murderous stalker. I think you deserve more than that. Perhaps after therapy we'd agree. When violence is in the equation it's not a minor thing, hence the "serious" part.

[catarecute]

maybe you are right i dont feel atractive or interesting to date someone normal but i also love this guy and he has a split personality which means he isn't that horrible murderer all the time. someontime he switches and becomes verry sweet. sometime i imagine him killing someone and getting arrested and waking up in a prison in his sweet personality being told he might be executed and crying. its braking my heart. i miss him everyday.

[BoopBoopBeep]

I only have to be that horrible murderer while I'm killing you for it to matter. All the other times I can be a saint. You're equally dead.

[catarecute]

what is that supposed to mean.

[BoopBoopBeep]

you said: "love this guy and he has a split personality which means he isn't that horrible murderer all the time"

He doesn't have to be all the time. Nobody who ever killed anyone is a killer ALL the time. That 15 minutes a month he IS though, and that's when he kills you/someone he loves/stranger/dont care, that's all that matters to THAT person. There's no "average out" with death. You are or you aren't.

[catarecute]

to be honest i believe in god and i believe that everyone is born as a baby good like an angel. people become bad if they have been hurt. of course he is dangerous but he deserves love and i am love to offer him.

[BoopBoopBeep]

Well then so did hitler and osama and everybody I ever shot in the face but that doesn't change the fact that they're still quite dead.

[catarecute]

colton?

[BoopBoopBeep]

I don't understand the question.

[catarecute]

are you my colton behind a fake account?

[BoopBoopBeep]

I'm nothing to you. Check my profile I'm quite active here, and markedly smarter than whoever colton is.

[catarecute]

if you are colton you are something to me. why are you rejecting my love?

[BoopBoopBeep]

it takes ten seconds to look at my profile and see i'm not anybody that knows you in real life. thankfully.

you're a mental train wreck though, so if i did know you i'd certainly "reject your love"

[catarecute]

i wouldn't offer it to you unless your this one guy. i only love him and noone else.

[BoopBoopBeep]

my loss i'm sure

moving along, he's still a nutjob, you need to get help so you can understand why he's not a prize

[catarecute]

and you need to get a medical degree

[BoopBoopBeep]

my others seem quite enough actually, thank you for your concern on my professional development, but i'm actually trying to scale back my interaction in the job world

[HateyouxD]

How did he reject you then stalk you? Or stalk you then reject you? Even that... that's confusing

[catarecute]

i dont get it either. but some sociopaths enjoy rejecting people as they know that it hurts them, they also enjoy stalking and killing. i know he has a personality disorder but i fell in love with him and i miss him

[HateyouxD]

Did you tell him that. I don't know sounds dangerous like he'll play with your mind

[catarecute]

he is dangerous but i feel bad for him. he was raised in a cult. he is verrt messed up. i told him i loved him. he knows i love him. i think he is playing games with me but he needs my love to heal him. i dont want him to kill someone. there is death penalty where he lives. i dont want him to die

[HateyouxD]

Stockholm syndrome

[catarecute]

i dont believe in this syndrom. i loved him before i knew he was a murderer. i love him so much sometime i feel that i want him to come after me just so i can see him again.

[HateyouxD]

But it's Stockholm because you knew something was wrong with him AND he treated you like shit beforhand... that's why now you want him to attack you in anyway just so you can see him. That's in itself Stockholm as well sorry

[catarecute]

but its also love. it might be labelled like that but what it real is is just an empathic person wondering how someone become so unkind and feeling bad for him and wanting to make it better for him. why do doctors always have to label everything.

[HateyouxD]

It's delusion babe I'm sorry

[jshm2]

WTF, are you insane? You got off with your life, and you're bitching about it?

[catarecute]

i am not bitching about it. i love him i can't help this.