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Even with no actual experience I still believe I fall under this category, I wonder if I need to manifest the law of attraction or something even though I do think that’s bs.

You know when you have a gut feeling? I’ve been on and off the dating apps for years, it’s come to the point where I’m not as interested & I swipe on matches/reply to msgs every few days. Dating apps are the only way I’ve tried dating as I dont have a social life but dating apps have been successful for quite a few people I know. I’ve never had a real relationship, I saw someone for a few months maybe 5 years ago & something told me after I saw him that’d I’d be single for a long time. With him it felt like settling & I refuse to ever be with someone that made me feel like that again.

I had to use dating apps bc I’m not very friendly & I don’t get approached in person. I’m told I’m cute/attractive & I will say I have a very low sex drive (haven’t masturbated or had sex in 5 years). I don’t think this is a huge deal considering this isn’t something that will be an issue that early on, a guy can’t just look at my profile/see me in person & know that right off the bat.

I get matches (never been the issue) but it’s always: ghosting, fizzling out, lack of interest (can go both ways), feelings not reciprocated, just not a good match & some guys are just crazy. I just always have a gnawing feeling like guys aren’t attracted to me, I’d get told once in a while that some guy looked at me/found me cute but they never do anything about it. And I don’t either hence why I’m posting this

TLDR: based off the description, is this something that’s unlucky in love?

It’s my 21 b day tomorrow and I have been literally talking about it for three months now, being one of those annoying people who count it down every day haha. Anyway today I got off work after working three doubles in a row absolutely wrecked but my boyfriend wanted us to go to the gym together. I initially said not but changed my mind last minute bc I knew I wanted to and I didn’t just want to lay around the rest of the day. Anyways we get to the gym and we beach off and do our own stuff, me occasionally checking on him ( 2 times) we go to refill our bottles and he randomly looks at me and says « you are the dullest person here right now » me because apparently me being super worn out but still trying to push through doing legs looked like I was being a drag even tho we weren’t even working out together 😐 being absolutely crushed I go sit in my car and cry while he finishes his workout. After we got home he first tried to defend himself but after I got out of the shower and he saw me crying lol he apologized. I really let it get to me tbh and let it kinda ruin my night. So while he was playing a game around 8 with his brother I texted him and said I wanted him to come lay down with me before it got too late so we could watch a movie and go wake me up if I was asleep because I was absolutely wrecked from work but still wanted to spend time with him and I also wanted him to stay up with me til 12 like a little kid I guess. Anyways he comes in around 10:30 and just lays in bed complaining how he is so tired from work and doesn’t say a single thing after that. I asked him if was upset and he replied « yeah I’m kinda annoyed you keep acting like "play with me talk with me" then tried to say he loved me and falls asleep. I guess I just wanted to know if this is even worth being upset about or I’m being a little (big now) kid hehe