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He's been in and out my life for 12 years, we were never dating more casual. Then he dumped me, his words were we are done over text. Then the texting started to bait me to respond like want sex and even asked me to have a 3 some when I told him to eff off hed give me abuse and get others to give abuse, so I changed number. Then it was dating sites I used, he'd let me know I knew it was him,, things like *mine* you'll never get better than me *I'll have you anytime anyplace anywhere* in different aliases, Over 2 years hindering me from moving on, then it was kik, I'd delete his chats and ended up deactivating it. Peace until 2 years ago an email I junked that straight away.. Few weeks ago strange email address I didn't recognise so responded. We did chat and met up for sex then he went hot and cold on me. Then arranged meet up again where I stupidly gave him my address, he said he was coming straight after work didn't show, so I sent 3 messages asking where he was, no answer and an email telling him never to contact me again. Then next morning a barrage of abuse, how I was a rat, he didn't trust me, I had mental health issues and he said that he was putting an end to this pronto.. Please tell me he means it? I'm absolutely scared now because he knows I'm capable of cutting him off and now he knows where I live.

I got my Bachelor’s in Psych back in 2018, since then I’ve worked in higher education. Was in academic advising for a little over 2 years & that job felt like a bad fit across the board. Then I was in career services for about 3 months at another school & combined with mgmt/having to talk in public settings made me quit, I then worked in financial aid at another school for a little less than 2 years. While that felt like kind of a better fit based off mgmt’s feedback & a bit more confidence in my job tasks, I was miserable. I just worked in FA again at another school for a little less than a month & decided working in this new school felt a bit off.

29F and I have never felt like such a failure, I have a bit of a savings after selling my condo a little less than 2 years ago & live with family again so there’s that “cushion” but it’s not ideal obviously. I completed a form to schedule a meeting with alumni career services where I got my degree & waiting to hear back, I’m scared to apply for work bc I really don’t know what I want to do with my life. My mom said maybe higher education isn’t a good fit for me b/c of this pattern I’ve had, thinks I should work temp jobs since there’s no commitment & I can pay my way to go back to school. But I don’t want any more student loans since pell is maxed out & again I DON’T KNOW what I want to do.

I’m kind of stumped in the sense that I don’t know what I want to do, I feel like I enjoy the higher ed field but it may not be the best fit as I keep ending up in a position where I’m back to looking for work again regardless if most of the time it’s been voluntary it seems. Advice appreciated, any resources or suggestions you have from experience leave in the comments.