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My (23F) ex (28M) and I recently got back into contact. He was my first boyfriend right out of high school. He is part of a program where he has to make amends. He admitted he tried to get me pregnant on purpose on many occasions. We grew up in the same neighborhood, we lived in a poor majority Latino area were single motherhood is the norm. He owns a good amount of real estates which he got paid in cash when we were together. He said he just wanted to have an "heir" to inherit all his assets once he was gone but didn't want to be a father or pay child support. I thought to myself that's horrible, looking back I had a lot of close calls with him. Should I forgive him?

I’m in a relationship and we been together for 5 months. Like at the beginning of our relationship I couldn’t stop thinking about him. But I can’t tell if this is love I’m feeling or I’m just don’t want to lose him. Because I don’t want to lose him. I would miss him so much but is it because I love him? Like I don’t get a butterflies but I do excited when I see his text or call. Like I use to get butterflies when he runs his fingers on my back. I also do think about a guy but I never really like him but I do think about him. But I can’t imagine kissing him it makes me sick to my stomach. I can’t really imagine kissing anyone else besides my boyfriend. I an sexually attracted to him but naturally it takes a lot for my to get in the mood. But should I just be in the mood just by looking at him. But I do love cuddling and touching him when he walks by. I do miss him when I’m not around him but it’s not the end of the world or a big impact on me.
Like I how thoughts am I leading him on but I’m scared to hurt and lose him. Is this love or am I’m just comfortable?