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So we are writing for over 50 days in a row from morning to night, and have fun sending different pictures / snaps to each other what we are currently doing.

She knows that I liked here and wanted to meet up the next day at my place to talk about, she should already have come over that day but cancelled it and then changed her mind again and had time spontanously...

At my place, she said she didn't want to give me false hopes. I understood that she prefers older man and I am 2y younger than her. She was open to me with her sexual preferences etc, she is addicted to sex so she had many partners probably 50 - 100+ .

After we cleared up the talk, she knew I liked / loved her , but she didn't tell me anything about her feelings directly only " I don't wanna give you false hopes, I don't even know what I really want." and later on she tells me I should ask her more personal questions, deeper conversations, she likes talking with me.

Then after the talk around 5:30pm I asked her if she would stay for dinner, she stayed for some reason, if she doesn't want to give me false hopes why does she stay, why didn't she tell me to fuck off like a friend of mine who got rejected from her?

And while preparing the dinner, she makes always body contact even uncomfortable body contact like pressing her chest against me, like I would not notice. And stuff like that or I playfully put her some chocolate in her mouth (teasing a bit), and she liked it.

She even wanted to do something again together, like cook smth else or do some baking. And for next week is planned to go somewhere with friends. But I don't really know if I still want to go there.

So in the end she was all the time happy, teases me , but doesn't want to give me false hope

Should I stop have contact with her? Because I myself feel like I am wasting my time with her...

I feel like my ex was emotionally abusive. I used to really be into her more than she was into me. She used tell me “I didn’t want this relationship, you did”. And when people would ask how we met she’d say “I didn’t wanna date him”. I explained to her how it hurts me when she says these things m. And she’d say “you’re just insecure”.

What’s even worse, she told me about how before we started dating. She went on dates with guys who she really liked and they rejected her. So am I the nice guy who finished last?

I used to be highly attracted to her. She never wanted sex with me, at the same time, complaining that her ex boyfriend didn’t want sex with her. She barely wanted to be affectionate with me.

Even worse, she used deliberately turn me on so she could sexually reject me. Would tell me “come over I’ll lick your balls and your butt” and refuse sex when I show up. Every single time we’d have an argument, even if it’s minor she’d say “you’re getting none”. So I started keeping silent to avoid conflict.

She used to complain that I’m not making her happy and give me reasons why. Which I’ll admit I’m not perfect, I know I have my flaws and bad habits, but. When I’d tell her what she’s doing to make me unhappy she’d reply “you knew I was a bitch when you met me”.

About 3 weeks ago we went to a Thanksgiving dinner at her friends house and I felt like she was kinda flirty with a guy. She seemed very touchy with him. I even saw her put her arm around him. I mentioned it to her a few days later. About how I was uncomfortable with how she behaved with him, and again. Told me “im insecure” and broke up with me. Denied ever putting her arm around him when I saw her do it.

It’s been a couple weeks and I’m still emotionally hurting over her. Haven’t been able to eat or sleep. Having nightmares and visions of her in bed with other men. I’ve dated and had sex with other women since. But I still can’t get her out of my head. What should I do?