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There’s this girl who I fell for about a year and half ago. I might be an idiot but she’s the most smart, funny, kind, and loving person I’ve ever met. We both had a dark moment in our life when we met and we grew so close together that we messaged each other so much like good morning and goodnight and knew each other so well. One day I wanted to ask her if we can become more then friends, she said no because of cultural differences but it’s different than you might imagine.. I also screwed up and I said “quit playin games with me” and I still to this day can’t forgive myself for that. fast forwarding about 5-7 months later we grew even closer, I tried again. I found out she was talking to someone else. I’m not the type of person who will never let a girl talk to other people, everyone has their own choices. I was definitely hurt and we stopped talking to each other for 5 months. 5 months pass by she messaged me saying : I missed you and you probably hate me. I replied back with I don’t hate anyone, I don’t hold grudges. I asked why she decided to message me after all this time, she said because she misses me. I honestly miss her too 🥺 but I can’t do another “friend zone” with her because she is the most perfect person in my eyes. But she can only offer a friendship. Should I move on, I’d hate to lose this person truthfully. But I don’t want to be depressed again when I fall in love with her again with her beautiful personality.

I am 29 and never had a real girlfriend. I am extremely heartbroken because all my life I have always wanted a girlfriend. I have always wanted a woman whom I can be affectionate and intimate with.

As I watch my peers get married, I just feel very late. Me and a woman can never say we knew each other when we were young. There is so much missed time. I am grown now and approaching my 30s. It just doesn't feel the same.

Meanwhile, I feel like I would be giving my heart to a woman who has loved someone when she was young and got to experience her youth with someone else. Something that I can never say we get to experience. On top of that, I have to deal with the fact she has loved other boys and men before me and made love to them before. I will be some subsequent lover that if she ever lost me, it wouldn't be anything new to her and there is no sweat off her back. It just doesn't seem fair at all.

I am starting to get too old for much younger women. I am starting to become unattractive to 18, 19, and early 20s women due to my age. I feel I am left with women that have too much baggage, and before long, I will be lucky to even find a woman that has never been divorced or has kids from a previous marriage.

this is over distance we met a few years ago at a mutual friends party and started talking online
I met this woman a few months ago and last night she finally admitted that she likes me but the thing is I can see that she is very afraid of being vulnerable whereas I am not she seems to have fear of abandonment

Anyway she obtains her income by being on social media and she posts a lot of things relating to her work on this. The thing is she posts things like if a man is not as successful as her she cannot even be around him. Whereas with me I can associate with anyone I do not care who they are

She claims that I am like family to her and she did wear her best outfit for me on my birthday

she says things about her friends to me and she seems very upset when her friends think she is weird but she also says that she is so confident that she doesn’t care what others think of her

She says on her social media that she wants a guy who is wealthy. But with me she claims that money does not matter to her when it comes to love

she told me that her social media is just a game and she also told me when this guy was sending her gifts that it was just a game as part of the social media

She asks guys their height

She has lip fillers and spends a lot of money on her appearance (not that this matters but it may help with your assessment)

She said that she could not even be around a man who isn’t as successful as her but thing is I am just some ordinary guy

I have helped her with one part of her social media and I have achieved massive results for her whereas on her own she was fairly idle and just quite lazy with it

I am qualified in communications so I know how to increase audience

I don’t know what to think of this

Should I stay with her or go?

I do like her and she knows it but I don’t know if she’s being real with me or fake as in she is fake in general and just wants me to remain in her life so she does not feel vulnerable

if I delete her I may lose her forever